happppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hit my 100lb marker actually surpassed it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYY and now 100 more to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well 103, i decided on my "ideal" weight that i am aiming for and i will get to by next year for sure! eeeeeeeeeeeeee i can't wait for summer 2009!!! next year is going to be the best EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know at first i felt like this was impossible that i was never going to get anywhere. but after losing the first 100 th
i lost 1lb... ANNOYING. i was hoping to be in a certain weight range by now. this is driving me insane! i think i'm going to go run outside for a while to fight off my restlessness. i don't care if everyone stares at me either. for some weird reason i've been craving soup, like only soup, nothing else. who craves soup? normal cravings would include junk food or whatever but i'm sitting here craving soup..i think i might go get some
i'm stuck at the same weight!!! ugh!!!!!!!! AHhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i'm not going to get to my goal by my birthday if i plateau like this again!! i'm not even worried about thanksgiving because i've realized its not about eating its about being with loved ones and being thankful, not stuffing your face...anyway i'm uploading a pic from halloween and a new solo body shot from the side. people keep asking me how i'm losing weight and i'm like eat less, eat healthy and start moving. ha.
Giovanni made me eat raisinets and milk duds last night. No matter, I still lost 2lbs after being stuck at a certain weight for 2 weeks now! Now I'm 2lbs away from hitting my 100lb lost marker! Oh yeah Giovanni is the name of the boy I talked about in the last entry about being the best of friends hmm I adore him
This Daylight Saving thing is messing up my schedule. It's not even noon yet but I'm wide awake and ready to take on the world!
i haven't been exercising. i've been eating bad. i haven't been drinking all my water. its just that i don't get to eat/drink throughout the day and then i go to friends parties at night and eat junk food! chips, dip, chex mix, cookies, cake!!! ahhhhhhh i got sick two nights in a row because all i ate that day was popcorn and chips. i was hurting bad the next day. my schedule has been all messed up because my boss asked me to fill in for somebody else in a different department that only works in
yesterday i had el pollo loco chicken tostado salad. worst mistake ever! it was disgusting. it wasn't even a salad. first it had iceberg lettuce which has no fiber in it whatsoever. then they put sourcream, some kind of dressing, rice, beans, two types of cheese and chicken. the only good thing about it was the chicken everything else was disgusting and loaded with grossness. oh yeah i forgot to mention all of this is put into a big crunchy deep fried taco shell dome thingy that i did not eat be
Today is my one year anniversary since having the surgery and lapband. To date I have lost 92lbs Trust me I haven't stopped doing the happy dance since yesterday
I just want to DANCE i'm so happy! 2lbs down! i love changing my ticker thing and seeing the numbers get lower and lower. it's probably the most satisfying thing ever! i'm out of that weight "decade" wooooooooooooooooooo! 91lbs since last year!! when i lose that 9 and get to my 100lbs loss i'm doing a HAPPY DANCE! wait, too late! i'm already doing a HAPPY DANCE!!! DANCE DANCE!!!!!!!!! :lol:
it's october! and that means haunted houses and carnivals!!! and HALLOWEEN! i'm so EXCITED! we're going to have so much fun this year!! but they do limit the number of people that can go through haunted houses together...eeshh and i'm a baby because i get scared easily.
i can't stop shopping! all i've been doing is buying new clothes! i love it! but i know i still have lots of weight to lose so i shouldn't go spending money on clothes i know i won't be wearing in a few months from now..hehe
i'm the same weight...for the past two weeks i've stayed the same weight...WHAT!?!!! ok ok i did go on this crazy pizza and chips "binge" ....i mean we were stuck in a hotel room all day filming and all they had was pizza and chips so that's what i ate....but i swear the next day i was paying big time for it..i was sick for most of that night and the next day. i couldn't believe having 2 1/2 slices of pizza and some chips could do that to a person...but i guess i haven't eaten junk like that for
i know this is dumb and i'm probably feeling sorry for myself but sometimes i see skinny pretty girls and i'm just like why couldn't i just have been like that??...why did i have to be the "fat girl"???..i look at them and just think to myself their life is probably so perfect because they're skinny and pretty and have lots of friends and don't have to worry about looking "fat" in an outfit. they can go shopping without thinking "is it going to fit" or whatever...maybe i'm just jealous because t
i've been working out for the past few days. i'm focusing on my hip/thigh area. walking up and down stairs, leg/hip moves, squats, sprinting...i'm hurting bad haha but it's totally cool. i'm happy to be getting back on a fitness routine. the last time i got a fill the doctor asked me if i was doing anything to lose the weight faster and i was like i exercise sometimes. he was like thats good because that will help you speed along the process so yeah i'm definitely exercising for sure now. the ot
AHHHHHHHHHHH OMGZ OMGZzzzz I lost 2 more lbs this morning so i'm officially out of that weight category that i have never been out ever when i was dieting around 17 years old!!!! i'm sooooooooooo happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeee :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
i told my mom that i want to be the ideal weight for my height which is 130lbs. i asked her if she thinks that's unrealistic?? she said no so i'm going for it! yippeeeeeee
so i'm kinda annoyed right now because in two weeks i only lost 1lb....1lb!!! AGHhh!! well i guess thats what i get because i've been eating string cheese and frozen yogurt, not getting in any vitamins or protein..and definitely not getting all my water in.. mehhh...
i decided to go through all my clothes and throw away/donate anything larger than a size large. its best to live in the present and not in the past. i'm never going back so might as well start now.
omgosh i'm so happy because i ha
i don't know if this is a compliment or just really creepy...but this lady had told my friend that if she had my face she would do anything to lose the weight... i guess i should take it as a compliment...anyway
i'm kind of annoyed because this other lady was saying that every time she sees me i'm always eating...uh first of all that's not true! she only sees me eat because when i first get into work i don't have time to eat breakfast so i'll sit there and eat breakfast. so hello!! ugh whate
teehee it's been two weeks today since i started back on my healthy lifestyle and i finally weighed myself..I LOST 5 more lbs!!!! eeekkkkkkk I AM SO HAPPY !!!
there has been lots and lots of drama in my life but i'm just so over it! i'm getting rid of anything and ANYBODY negative in my life. I'm not looking back either. I'm not going to be the "bigger" person and say "let's try to make this work", "let's talk"..or anything! People have used and abused me. Only now am I finally standing up f
You know what I wish? That people were honest with themselves. Why hide who you are? It just frustrates me when people lie. What's even more frustrating is knowing they are lying to themselves. I'm not talking about things you can change externally, I'm talking about from within. If you know something is true, but you turn the blind eye... What are you so afraid of? Why don't you live?
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mario left tonight.. he's on
so it's day three! everyone says the third day is always the hardest because, well, actually i don't know why??..well anyway, i've been reading the forums and i still see some people eat fast food...i don't want to sound rude or mean but ARE YOU CRAZY!!??!! fast food is probably the worst thing you could ever put into your body!! its like the equivalent to crack for a crackhead!!! ugh i don't know, i'm done judging..i'm just going to take care of myself. i refuse to eat fast food anymore. i have
i haven't weighed myself lately. i'm too afraid of what it will say. i've been eating really bad for the past week without exercise. i feel disgusting. on the bright side, yesterday i went back on my diet and am now completing day one i guess it is true that what you eat really affects your moods and how you look. i felt horrible snacking on chips and slushies all day. gross. i was sluggish, tired, and lazy. my skin turned disgusting after a few days of eating junk food. my friend said i had
my sf friend is in town again and i actually decided to hang out with her because i was just feeling good. i got the day off so i decided to hang with her. i asked her if she wanted to like skate around the neighborhood to jamba juice or whereever. this was like at 5 in the afternoon and the sun is still shining high so it was all good. but we didn't make out till 9 because she was held "hostage" by her family which was perfect because i just wanted to be lazy lounging around the house. anyway b
the puerto rican food was delicious! i basically ate like half a chicken and a piece of cow. then we salsa-ed all night! haha! mario's mom was exhausted because she was dancing with mario. she didn't realize mario can dance and shake it like nobody's business! but i do because me and mario dance like all the time. i can keep up with him because i'm used to it. plus i workout, i'm young, and i have soo much energy. i could dance all night if somebody told me i had to!
i had hit a plateau only l
can somebody please tell me why i'm looking at fast food nutritional facts aka excruciating slow torture??! ( so i have a thing for wendy's chili..i like to put two of those sour cream thingys in it and eat it like that. i know i'm horrible! but i did resist the urge. so hard.
so at work i'm sitting between two people eating Hawaiian food..not fun ( ..i wanted some sooooo bad you don't even realize!! ( i'm surprised i kept my cool so well. then for at least half an hour i was talking to my c
so i'm only going to weigh myself on sundays and thursdays. they seem to be the days i actually get some results! so i was talking to one of my friends who also got the surgery done about how i hate that i'm not losing the weight fast enough. she tells me that mass weighs more than fat..i think..she continues with an analogy about how a basketball and golf ball weigh the same. the difference is that the basketball is full of air aka fat. she said it was obvious i was losing fat so she told me to
i decided NOT to weight myself daily. do you know how much of a mood killer that is gahh! i'm always like yeah i did so good yesterday i probably lost a pound and then i weigh myself the next morning and it still says the same weight and i'm like WHAaaaaaT!!!?!!!
what is this obsession people are having with that movie "the dark knight"???! weird.....
anyway i didn't skate last night because i bruised my left elbow and half way down my forearm from crash landing on it while trying to do a tai
well i'm back on my exercising routines! i'm not going to call it routines because it's not really a routine per se. it's more like a way for me to kick up my heart rate so i have more energy throughout the day and be super happy all day! last night i actually went skating! i fell face forward and totally ate it! but now i know how to actually get on the board (without it flying the other way), how to stand (like arrange my feet) , how to shift the board so i don't run into the curb, and coast!
