When I first learned that my initial band adjustment was going to be four weeks after a whale’s wake of hunger that had kicked in, I was a little disturbed. I was in fact terrified that the substantial weight that I had kicked off over the previous weeks would come flooding back with a vengeance and all would be lost (or indeed gained). Then, that fear was replaced with a certain feeling that a challenge had been set - a challenge for me to have one more attempt to combat and defeat the beast th
so for a minute i had thing for crystal light, but of course i'm not anymore because i read the ingredients. it contains aspartame which contains methanol which is an ingredient found in embalming fluid. but wow did it taste delicious. so i'm on the hunt for something to flavor my water minus the embalming fluid...ha. i found this thing called "zenergize" it's basically a supplement tablet. i got raspberry green tea flavor. it just gives the right amount of kick to my water.
so my coworkers an
Yesterday I scheduled the appointment for the lapband! It's set for April 24th, 2009.
I feel like it's falling into place, and at times I feel myself pushing for it. I know that when the time is right it will happen and this is not something to rush. Easy does it Angie! Easy does it. A decision has been mad, this is progress. There is light at the end of the tunnel! I am a controller and a planner by nature. I often have to practice self restraint when the urge comes to push or force
Last night Jimmy and I had a good long discussion about this life change. We both agree that it's time and our family needs this. Being over weight has so many limitations. Now it's time for action.
Today is my Wedding Anniversary! Jim, and I have been married for 2 years! Time has a way of passing when you’re in love!
I feel so blessed that my husband is supportive of this life changing choice. The more I learn the more I get to share with him. Knowledge is power baby!
We talked this morning, while getting ready for work. I used the toilet for a chair, while he shaved, romantic huh! We are going to work toward a "Goal" month for the lap band. So! We decided on June! I am happ
i am now out of the 200's!!!! i have been in the 200's for half of my life probably since i was 12 or 13! i cannot believe it! i am so happy!!!!!! yessssssssssssssssssssssss i know it's still 199 but i'm in the 100's now! i can honestly say no i'm not 200lbs or over that ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
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What a grand day to begin a blog! I am hoping this will help me organize my thoughts and set an account of the journey.
I have made a decision to be banded. My husband supports me, and is on board for the ride! (I love you Jim.) So now the lesson begins, research, humility, patience, saving, and relationship building. I have been surfing the forum now for a few days. Reading posts, introducing myself, and getting to know others who share this common ground. I've ordered the book, "Band
"I can resist anything except temptation." A typically wonderful quote from Oscar Wilde. A quote that rang trough my head yesterday as I succumbed to the lessening powers of The Band over Mothering Sunday lunch.
As I sat in my favourite restaurant and bar (La Place in Winchester - highly recommended!) I finished off the whole plate of Steak Haché et Frites (hamburger and chips for us lesser mortals). I had sinned and needed to birch myself severely. The reprimand I deserved could not wait. I ne
oh wow so i'm minding my own business today and just taking a day off to watch movies by myself with my window open and the fresh sunny breeze sweeping through. and guess who is calling me? yes that giovanni once again...so he's just asking me what i'm doing and i'm like chilling then hes like ok bye. anyway he calls me 15 minutes later and is like we're going to eat be ready in 15 minutes then he hangs up on me. great. so now i have to get ready because he's going to be over and this boy doesn'
the gym is FANTASTIC!!!!!! i'm really sore but i weighed myself this morning and i lost 2 more lbs!!! amazing! i knew this weight has been dying to just come off. all it took was some action on my part. i'm happy i took the initiative. i want to work out like all the time! i was there for 3 hours. one hour of cardio and then an hour and a half on random machines working out my arms, torso, and legs. then i did the dry sauna! i love the sauna! great workout! i can't wait to do it again tonight!
i joined the gym! i'm going to go work out tonight after i eat and finish watching james dean "rebel without a cause" i fell asleep watching it last night...ha guess i was just really tired. james dean is sooo cute! speaking of cute...EDWARD CULLEN! TWILIGHT out on DVD tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so excited! i can't wait! i fixed my IPOD! FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! i have my own music again!!!!! you don't even realize how torturous that was for me to not have my o
-i'm joining the gym tomorrow
-new goal weight: 120lbs
-i'm swearing off carbs
-i'm swearing off donuts, cookies, and SWEETS in general.
-i don't like my mom very much at this point in time.
-i hate that giovanni hates it when people think i'm his girlfriend. (i mean what's so bad about me?! )
-i hate when people ask me if giovanni is my boyfriend
-i hate that i'm not financially independent
-i hate depending on people
-i hate filling up my gas tank every two/three days!
-i hate pe
i'm still the same weight for what like 3 weeks now?! i really need to start exercising. i need to join a gym for reals because i don't have any place to workout i feel weird walking around outside by myself plus that's sorta dangerous...
i'm going to go through all my clothes and throw out everything that's either too big or i never wear anymore which of course is because it's too big. i kinda stopped shopping because i need to stop myself from buying clothes now while i'm still losing weight.
Stepping on the scales a few days ago to realise that I had cast aside the title of “morbidly obese” was almost as thrilling at when I first discovered Sicilian lemon pudding. Almost.As I left the bathroom, adorned with my new proud banner of “obese”, I was mentally working out when my next heavy-weight title adjustment to “overweight” would be. Perhaps I wasn’t savouring my obese label with as much pureed relish as I should have been.This is what it took lose my "morbid" moniker!The one thing
hello! so i've been eating horribly and not exercising...i haven't been weighing myself regularly either. i kind of "let it go"....like i'm still eating healthy but if i want to have dessert i will...even though its pretty much every night. i've been craving carbs too. i've been eating crackers and bread. i know you wonder how in the world am i eating bread well i just eat soup and dip it in there to make it soft so it goes down way easier. i really really should get a fill because even though f
This is one blog article I started to write before I went into hospital. I decided to postpone it until afterwards, because I didn't want my final cyber-words to be ones of negativity if things did go wrong. The surgery was a success and now I feel able to voice my thoughts on the subject that has been very much a part of my life since I can remember. Belly bashers!
Growing up in a relatively privileged way, my early years of verbal abuse were pretty much limited to the playground, as most are.
ekkks!
tomorrow i leave for mexico!
we're driving to buffalo in the earrrrrly morning, to catch our flight around noon.
sigh/
i'm getting butterflies in my tummy .. i'm getting so excited!
I was down 5.5lbs this morn -
that's just over a lb a day.
i'm not going to get to 11lbs by tuesday, but realistically, that's fairly impossible - unless I stopped drinking liquid and didn't eat.
I've always held more water .. boo.
Ok...so the last time I blogged I was three weeks out from the surgery, and was still on the liquids. Man was that the hard part indeed! I didn't mind the liquids so much...it was just that I was running out of different options, and they were getting so boring! It was also hard as well to eat/drink only liquids as well while having to prepare meals for my husband, and two kids!! I say this to encourage all at this stage to say this...IT IS ALL WORTH IT!!
When I started real food again it
My first official day of my pre-op diet started yesterday.
i've had some stomach issues in the past, when i've been dieting, due to the lack of substance in my tummy - and the medication I'm on.
Just a bad bad mix!
I was experiencing some of these symptoms yesterday. I was throwing up constantly last night, every 30 minutes or so. But because i have nothing in my tummy, it was more gagging, to release the air that seems to be in there. I'd always feel better, but only for 30 minutes or so.
Following a very strict liver-reduction diet and five days of post-operative mush, I am a quarter of the way to my ideal weight. At this rate, I will be at my target of 14 stone (196 lbs or 89kgs) in about two months. Now, obviously I am not stupid enough to think that this is a) possible or entirely healthy. But it makes me determined that this thing is going to work.I have another 24 days left of the puree diet (yes, I am counting the days) and I think I may well burst into tears of joy when
So, here I am a day after surgery. Guess what! I made it through in tact. With a few scars, a little less hair and a lot of learning to do.The day went as planned. I arrived at seven thirty as instructed and was in my gown, support stockings and rather fetching paper knickers by eight. The formalities were taken care of - a couple of signatures were needed on well-guarded legal papers ensuring I wasn't able to claim for damages in the unlikely event of me failing the post operative "aliveness te
Well, the time has come for me to right my final blog as an unaided dieter. I will hopefully be signing back in soon after the operation at the weekend to update the few and far between people that read this that I made it through to the other side (well, not that other side...this side of that side!).I don't have much to talk about myself in this "instalment" - instead, I would like to focus on others.With the operation being so close, I have had to disclose details to a couple of very close fr
sometimes i'm really really stupid...i'm going to stop now.
gio and i made up. i started to be more pleasant and more like myself. i guess it worked because it reminded him of why he loves and wants to be around me in the first place. sometimes he would say something rude or try to be mean but he realized i wasn't being rude/mean back or being pouty. but i did get upset once last night because he said i smelled so i walked away from him then he walked over to where i was standing and said oh wh
