I feel like a fraud. i didn't go back on my diet. i was doing good for half a day and something just hit me. before i knew it i was being served smores and had chocolate dripping on my face. ugh......MARIO! everytime i'm around him and he's being "bad" i just want to be bad too. Its so funny because he's part of my inspiration and also a part of my destruction! anyway i think i'm over it now. i ran out of food spending money and accidentally over-drafted my account ( now they charge 34 dolla
I got on here thinking I would just check to see more about the Lap Band. Having checked it out in Oregon, I was not impressed on what you have to go through to even be considered for the surgery. Once I got to this site, I was amazed /biggrin.gif' class='bbc_emoticon' alt=':D' /><' /> . People are so positive. Maybe all the bad stuff is deleted. Who knows, all I know it has changed my whole view about having the surgery out of state.
My family and friends are not happy about my consid
great..i just wrote like two long paragraphs and they erased because i refreshed the screen. whatever. so here's the fast update:
-i love mario
-indulgence week is over
-i'm back on my health diet
- i refuse to be the third wheel or "second rate"
-no caffeine
-exercising again
-swimming all summer
-i'm jealous of skinny pretty girls and i hate them all.
-nevermind i take it back...
-"be honest, be yourself"..pretty much the best advice ever said to me by my mom
-i love my mom
So my mommy and I are planing on having the lap band in a month!! I am so excited!! I have lost 10Ibs on the diet the Dr put us on!! It hard though working at Wendy's!! I can't wait till all is said and done!! Now that I finally figured this thing out I will be posting more!!
so i'm back from the wedding, and dancing all night with a group of like 15 people. it was fun. i mean i didn't really know know any of the people but they were cool. so i kind of had this crush on this guy at the wedding and so did everybody else. anyway this girl that knew my mom and aunt was hanging around me all night so we just bonded. anyway she was like that guy is so hot and i was like i know! then she asks me to go dance with her and all the family because "hot boy" was dancing now too.
my mom just measured my height right now and i'm 5'6!!!!!! i don't believe it! when did i grow?! well i guess the last time i did measure my height i was like 18 and i just assumed i was the same height now because i thought you stop growing when you reach a certain age..well i'm happy!!!! i always wanted to be 5'7 but 5'6 is still great! hmm i am 22 now so maybe i have stopped growing?.. well wow! for the longest time i thought i was still 5'4 1/2!! yayaya now i'm 5'6 yayaya! it must be true be
ugh i hate vegas. dumb buffets and dumb "2 for 1" deals that who in their right mind would ever pass up!?!! maybe someone trying to lose weight?! NOT! ...my "indulgence" week is still going full speed ahead and i can't stop! well i know i'm going to stop because it gets old..you know eating whatever you want with no consequences. i noticed i eat when i'm really really happy. and i'm super happy right now. i never eat when i'm sad or mad. when i'm sad/mad i like to workout or do something active
so um i fell off the wagon...i couldn't help myself! it was mario's fault! he had these chips and he was waving it my face and i just went gimme gimme and well...here's the thing i'm not mad at myself. i figure i need to give myself some room to be "bad". i mean everyone has a bad day and i'm not going to beat myself up over it. i'm losing weight and i'm keeping it off, so that right there is a huge accomplishment. because of the lap band i know i will never put it back on. i know there are chan
Hey guys,just wanted to let everyone know that we are doing better Filling up in Lean Cusinine and LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS of salad,lol. All is well. Question was wondering what is the one thing you could not do without while having your band done in TJ. Jackie and I are trying to everything ready to go, but really not sure what to take, Any ideas. And thanks for all the supports. You guys are great.
ok so i'm cool today. i gave my two bestfriends a piece of my mind so they know exactly where they stand with me. the first one is the one in sf who upset me which in turn made me get super serious about my lifestyle change. we wrote more but this is pretty much the important part:
On Sat, Jul 5, 2008 at 4:15 AM, M wrote:
when you've managed to push me away for the last time will you get it then? don't think i'm just being "crazy mal" when i really do stop returning your email/calls/texts for
i am heartbroken right now. I feel like love is not real. not just love between lovers or husband/wife but love in general...between friends, siblings, HUMANITY. i feel like everybody is fake and only cares about themselves. there is no loyalty, no heart, no love. i am so sick of it. i want to run away. i want to run far far away. i've realized i'm always going to be second best. i'm never number one. i'm the back up girl. i'm the one that everybody uses when their real number is busy or gone. i
yaya so i'm so happy right now because we were out all day with the kids! we brought them to a museum, desert exhibit, farmer's market, and then pre-fireworks at the park! it was the longest day ever but it was sooo much fun! So of course everybody was eating regular food like fast food or park food with the booths but I just refused to eat any of it. I got a salad and ate as many fruits I could find. I kept hydrated all day probably drank at least 8 bottles of water so that's good. I lost anoth
Ok I'm trying to get ready for my and my daughter's lap band 8/15/08, any suggestion as to what to buy and stock up on. I'm a nurse and this is all new to me. Really excited though.
Ok i would first like to say that I'm a very independent young lady. I hate to depend on anyone for support. Co-dependency is not my thing. In relationships I like to be free and do as I please. I ask that the other person is the same exact way. I cannot stand someone clinging onto me. I hate the feeling of having to have someone because you depend on that person to make you feel a certain way. May it be happiness, love, security, etc. I can't do it. I don't want to do it. I much rather make mys
Today was rough..
My coworker/friend is 5'5 and weighs 122lbs. She is trying to gain weight. I joke with her and say oh you're only 3lbs away from being perfect. So she constantly eats and she sits right next to me. I used to eat with her and she would always share her food with me. But now since I'm on a diet it's torture to be near her. She offered me her dumplings and I had to turn them down. She then had lasagna while I ate a salad. My salad was delicious, but did I ever mention my favo
I just got back from attending a birthday party and dancing all night with my main bestestboy-friend Of course there was birthday cake at the party and man did I really want to just stick my face in it to indulge! #-o I didn't I just smooshed the fork around on the plate. I think the motion of picking up a fork and moving it around on plate was comforting enough for me. Whoa...I think that sounded really weird???...but in a way it satisfied me just to do that and not eat the cake. There wa
So I'm nervous about this weekend. Fourth of July! The picnics, the parties, the bbqs...all the food. My friends are throwing a party and I'm going to look like a weirdo if I don't eat any regular stuff like a hot dog or chips. Then there is a wedding on the 11th and a potluck on the 12th.
my coworker asked me if i was losing weight and i said yes. She told me she could really see it in my face and that i looked good. ha. My friend/coworker always comments how I'm losing weight and look so go
Hey Y'all!!! I am scheduled for surgery on Thursday, July 3rd at the Obesity Control Center. I have done my homework and am NOT scared about the facility or the Doctors. HOWEVER, I am a country girl raised in Eastern North Carolina, (Johnston County, by God! ) by a preaching/ tobacco farmer and I have never traveled too far from home, let alone out of this country. I have heard stories of how I could be mugged, shot, and/or arrested in Tijuana if I wear my regular clothes or act like my no
Well I got up this Am and hit my goal of 5% like Dr. Miranda wanted!! Wow that wasn't all that bad.. SO tomorrow is the day I leave. I feel pretty good about things, I am not scared. I am not evern thinking about my new car ha ha.. This is going to a fun experience. So until next time.. See ya later
so she wrote back...
I was annoyed you weren't understanding what i was saying so i wanted to end the conversation so you got that i was annoyed, sorry. And i don't do it to anybody or everybody I do it to people who can laugh at themselves therefore not hate me for laughing with them and then we can laugh at each other. but when i'm joking i'm joking. I realized i was rude so i apologized. and i never apologize.
whatever...i don't even care to respond. She's so stupid. Making fun of a person
Ok I thought I would never blog.. I am not sure why but I always thought it wasn't me. So here I am and I am not sure what I am to say...
SOOOOOO..... I am going to start off by saying I am leaving day after tomorrow to have my lap placed on July 1st.. I am excited not really nervous, just want it over and done with and back with my family at home,, on my way to a healthier life..(I refuse to punctuate properly on this blog by the way).
I am a little irritated by my husband today though,, he
so my bestfriend/sister (yeah the one in sf that pissed me off because she made a "joke" about me being fat) emailed me and said this:
Also, sorry if i'm mean to you, i don't want to be mean i just want to make a joke and it be a low blow and then that person realize its a joke but still get the idea that i don't give a f*** what they say. ok i guess i do mean to be mean. S***. Sorry!!
I wrote this back:
low blows aren't cool when that person means something to you. you really did piss me of
wow temptation hit hard today..
so today i went out with two of my friends (different group from last night). first we went shopping then they decided to eat. I got really nervous because I felt pressured to eat. I mean they weren't telling me to eat or anything but I felt like if I didn't I would look awkward. plus they were having mexican food and I was like OMG BURRITO!...eh. but then something hit me and I said no. I just walked away and said eh i'm not going to get anything I have granola
