-i haven't eaten in two days. I've completely lost my appetite.

-i hate gio because he hurts me to no end.

-he told me he never thinks i'm going to ever get to 150lbs..i was so pissed when he said that i wanted to jump across the table and strangle him. he of all people know how difficult this is for me and sitting there belittling me is not going to help me with anything!

-I told him first of all i've already lost 135lbs so 45lbs is NOTHING! then he goes it's easy to lose 100 or so lbs when you weigh 300+ but to lose 50+ lbs is harder now that i'm at a lower weight. I thought about it and he's right but i know i can still do it. he was like well prove me wrong. and i told him i live to prove people wrong, especially people like him...

-i don't want to see him for a very long time. maybe until i get to 150lbs. and then i can be like BOOYA IN YOUR FACE YOU STUPID JERK!

*i changed my ticker thing to goal weight of 150lbs just for now. but my main goal weight is 120lbs that's not going to change unless 130 looks good then well you know i'm staying there. but i don't want to weigh more than 130lbs, i know that. i don't want to say oh i'm 5'5 and i weigh 150lbs or 140lbs...well you know..

-... i decided to do the body fat calculator

http://www.healthcentral.com/cholesterol/h...t-2774-143.html

August 6, 2008

You have 33.8% body fat.

You have 86.5 Pounds of fat and 169.5 Pounds of lean (muscle, bone, body water).

December 21, 2008

You have 30.2% body fat.

You have 66.4 Pounds of fat and 153.6 Pounds of lean (muscle, bone, body water).

May 8, 2009

You have 29.6% body fat.

You have 57.7 Pounds of fat and 137.3 Pounds of lean (muscle, bone, body water).-

good website for protein intake

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/maia25.htm

you're supposed to put in your lean body pounds. So I'm supposed to consume about 49g of protein a day. i havent really been taking protein, i've kind of been doing whatever. i guess that's why i didn't lose any weight last month. anyway i'm going to take care of that now.

-i've realized something..my bestfriends really do love and care about me..it's probably really frustrating to deal with me when they know I'm trying to lose weight and they're watching me stuff a burrito, cheeseburger, pizza, gelato, etc down my face...gio has no patience whatsoever so when he says stuff it really cuts like a knife. i guess like with what jeri did last year...but i mean do they really have to be so rude about it????!..i mean it's a bad habit that i've been trying to break. i've been overweight my whole life and it's going to take time to change...it hasn't even been 2 years since i got the surgery yet and i think i'm doing a pretty good job losing and keeping the weight off. but i guess they know i can do better...ugh it sucks realizing you're in the wrong...but i have to do the right thing.