Well. This is me. February 6, 2008, I was banded. I got a fill six weeks later. ... and then two weeks after that I fell and injured a rebuilt ankle. Two months after that - I fell again.

So - after finding this fantastic forum I realized that I had no excuses anymore. It was time.

I had lost enough weight to go down comfortably two sizes. ... AND THEN ... I went up three sizes.

Nice.

I want to be healthy.

I had this surgery for a reason.

I have some fantastic friends - but some of them are really adept at sabbatoging. My best friend actually told me that she wouldn't be able to handle my being smaller than her. That was odd to hear.

I'm ready - I'm going to do this. My fill is scheduled for July 2nd at 9:30 a.m. I am mortified to go back into the doctor as a failure - but encouraged that I can get past that - and do what is right for me. This isn't about the doctor, my friends or my family.

This is about me. Which is what this blog is about.

I'm going to spend the next couple of weeks getting ready for this fill. Eating healthier. Paying attention to what I'm putting in my body. No sodas. No bread.

Thanks for being with me in this beginning - every day is new - I have fantastic opportunities ahead of me.

Much love.