i saw a picture of myself that mario's mom took last year around this time...i was HUGE. and mario was like omg look at how much weight you lost! and i was like omg!!! then mario's mom was like don't delete those! and i was like i won't i like to see old pictures of me being super fat because it just reminds me where i never want to ever be again.

everything is good. i feel good. i feel like i can be whole again. i don't need to depend on anyone but myself. i did this all by myself. i don't need anyones help. its nice that they lend a helping hand and i thank them but in the end it all comes down to me. and i thank myself! yayayaya