Wow. I figured out this blog thing except that I accidentally made two blogs. Anway, I immediately started writing all about my weight and food issues. The reason I wrote, "Wow." is because I've been writing steadily for the last hour. What I ended up with is pretty intense and I'm not sure if I should publish it. It looks like I just vomited up 23 years of food and weight issues. It was good for me to get all that out but I'm not sure if I want to slime anyone else with it.

For now I'll say, I'm fat. I'm sick of being fat. I need help not to be fat. I think the lapband will help me as I change my eating habits. I don't want the lapband to just help me eat less of the foods I ate that helped me get fat. I want the lap band to help curb my appetite while I try to change my life and eat healthier foods. Currently, I'll eat a healthy meal of a lean protein, veggies, and a salad. Then, still hungry an hour later, I'll sit down to my real meal of fat, carbs, and sugar to fill myself up. I'm hoping that with the lapband I'll eat my healthy meal, feel satisifed sooner, then stop. And I can just focus on eating better.

I'm praying for success.