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Today I am packing and getting things ready to go. :-h I got my benefiber, my gas x and my pill crusher so I can take my meds. I bought my husband and I matching suit cases that have wheels on them so we wont have to pick them up, except to put them above us on the plane. I dont plan on checking any luggage, this is all we plan to take. I think a couple changes of clothes should do it. He has to take his seapac machine, I hope they dont make him check his bag because he is taking that. Maybe he can get that in his bag. All we have to do now is pack my sons bag and get the dogs ready to go in the kennell. It is nervewracking. But It helps that we wont be gone long. I hope the recovery goes well. Tomorrow we are going to cover the pool and get the house cleaned so that will help to make things go well when we get home. We should have nothing to worry about, I hope. We leave on Thursday and I go back to work on Tuesday, so we will see how it goes. I'll be glad once this is over. These next few days I bet I am a wreck. It is kinda stressful but the days should go by fast.

Have a great time. I went to walmart too and got my benefiber and pill crusher and gas x. I think that is what I needed. I leave on Thursday. Let me know how you do.

So with all the excitement, I sat down the other day and was checking out houses in my area. I have wanted to move for a while. I do love coming home for lunch and the short drive. But I am tired of the crime filled neighborhood. I found a wonderful home. My husband and I went out and we have now seen it 3 times. My realitor told me to take care of the surgery and when we get back, we can list our house and possiblity make an offer, contingent on our house selling. The hard part is getting our house ready. I found a housekeeper to clean it up. We need the yard done and then he needs to finish the floor. I think at that point we should be good to go. I am going to miss my pool. That is hard to let go. I worry that when we get back from TJ, are we even going to feel like doing anything? I dont want to miss out on this house. This is terrible timing. But wouldnt it be great to start our lives over with new body and new house. It has an acre and a half I could actually do so planting and yard work, in peace and quiet. Maybe I am looking for a distraction. I dont know, but it is beautiful and I hope we can work it out. I told the realitor that I would call her when we get back to let her know how we are feeling, we will just have to go from there. If we have to put the whole thing off then I guess that is what will happen. Meanwhile, I have to get ready for this trip. I look forward to getting some rest. I am going to really miss my son but at the same time it may be good for me to be away from him for a while. We will appreciate eachother more.

HA, HA you crack me up !! I love it!!

My thoughts a prayers are with everyone on this day. 09/11 is something, I know in my lifetime, I will never forget. I saw this and I thought it was very nice Short but nice.

I dont even trust my scales anymore. But I dont think I has lost enough and it has me stressed out. I have no desire to do all the way down there to get rejected or lecture on how much of a failure I am. I am going to spend the next 7 days, eating nothing. My body dont want to give up this fat, I have no idea why. I am eating the way they told me too and yet, nothing. I am frustrated. I guess maybe a little scarred. I am having nightmares. As the days get closer they get worse, they are not all about the band. They are really strange, some are about work. I know work is stressing me out too. It will be good to get away from it a while. I am really tired, not having my mochas has made it hard for me to stay awake. I need coffee. I may just go get a plain coffee, maybe that will help. I can't wait for this to be overwith. I dont even know if I am excited, I am so nervous. All I can do is try to keep busy, these next 7 days are going to be nerve racking!!!

I wont be able to eat Pineapple???? OH NO!!

I cant sleep, I am so nervous. I am trying to concentrate on other things but that is making it worse. Major anxiety here. I need sleep. Wonder if this will make me lose weight?

This is what I have to eat daily. now I am taking Atkins Advantage Milk Chocolate shakes One for breakfast One for lunch Then a salad with some fruit. If I get hungry, I had some jenny craig cookies with more fruit Then a Lean Cuisine for Dinner. This morning, I had one egg & one Sausage An Adkins Shake Then some lemonaide mix drink Adkins Shake for Lunch Adkins Shake for Dinner. Had to mix it up, I am bored with shakes. The scale today says 4 pounds down. I think I have 9 days left. Not sure. We leave not this Thursday but next Thursday. Scarry. All I can think about is how bad I am going to miss my son and will he be ok. I really dont think the Adkins shakes are any better than slimfast, but a change is nice.

We leave on the 18th, that does not give me alot of time. I am going to get more shakes tomorrow and maybe I should go on them 3 x a day and forget eating. I have to do something. I want this to happen. I am going to freak out if I dont start losing. I wonder if TOM is coming and that is what is causing this, I feel bloated. I went and walked around clackamas town center, now I am tired. I dont want to be this way. I lost 25 pounds on Jenny Craig, I know this is possible. I just dont understand why this is not moving. Maybe it is the water, I dont drink enough. I have only had 8 ounces today and I am not even thirsty.

I am on pre-op diet. It is weird, I will lose 4 pounds, then gain back 3. Lose 5, per scale, then gain back 2. I have no idea what I have lost. I got a new scale, says I have lost nothing. I am freaking out. I dont want to be rejected. These next 13 days, I might as well live on water. I am doing the slimfast and the lean Quizene. I had one slip and here I am. I am hungry. I am so stressed out. I am really trying. I have been so good. No candy, no donuts, one pop in 2 weeks. That is a miracle for me. I even gave up the mocha, I have only had one in two weeks. I miss it so bad. I love my coffee mochas. Anyone have any advise on how to speed this up?

Well time is getting close. 13 days and we will be leaving to go down to OCC. I am very nervous about leaving my child. I worry about him. I am trying to get things in order at home, it is very stressful. I am not sure how much weight I have lost, if anything at all. This next week will be the breaking point. I wont be able to eat much of anything. I feel very tired most of the time. I dont feel like I am getting enough water. I have to work on that. I look forward to getting this done so I can move on from here. My husband is getting nervous, but he is looking forward to this being over with too. Guess we will see what happens.

The better question is, will the washer on spin cycle still work, hahahahhah Kidding. Sorry just had too

Thank god your back, I was going through withdrawl. 13 days left girl and I am on my way. I am so excited. The weight loss is tough, I have no idea what I have lost. I am going to buy a scale tomorrow, this thing is broke. Lets pray for good news. Welcome back!!!

Anyone getting banded on the 19th? My husband and I are and I wanted to see if we could know who is going to be there to get this done. We hope to see you there?

I too have the same fear. I feel like I have lost. I think about 6 pounds. I started over two weeks ago and it is so slow. All you can do is the best you can. The hard part is being faithful to the program. I have slipped once and had a hamburger from Burgerville. I am not sure how much it hurt me since, I had slim fast all day but I knew better. So far this week I have done well. Just keep on target. Stay on here and get support that you need. I am going to be banded on the 19th, I may see you there, you will be coming out as I go in. I will be the one completely nervous. HA! Keep in touch.

Thanks to the late George Carlin, that is where I got it.

My surgery is on the 19th and I am doing pre-op diet. What I have been doing is the slim fast in the AM, then I chew on some apples, then slim fast for lunch and a small salad. Then my lean cuisine for dinner. So far everyone at work is impressed with my weight loss. I think I am down about 6 pounds. My scale is acting up so I am not sure exactly, but I can get my old pants on, so something is working. I would be careful at eating too much, gotta get that weight off for the surgery. I am scarred I wont lose enough. So I am really watching what I eat. Good luck and see you in bandland..

Well that doesnt look to bad as a post op diet, I think I can do that. Here I was freaking out. Seems lik I can have something in my mouth. I wonder though, if you get the feeling that you want to chew something, has anyone just chewed gum, just for that feeling. Maybe that would keep the sores out too, that I keep hearing about.

Excellent glad it went well, keep us updated on your progress. I get my band soon and I am nervous.

I couldnt get it to work, it must be down or something

I know this is completely off the subject, but I saw this video and had to share. This 15 year old girl made it and oh my god, she is incredible. For those of you who have issues about the war, like I sometimes do. This made me think a little bit more about my thinking. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42FfRgpO7q0 If you cant find it, just go to youtube and type in Lizzie Palmer, she is an incredible young lady. Thanks