stormy

Thank you so much, I really need encouragment right now. I will keep you up to date. Thanks again

I know all women go through this but for me it is horrible. I get into a mode where I am confused about everything. Am I making the right choices? Where is my life going? Am I doing the right things? Am I going to get into trouble somewhere? It is horrible. I am even doubting the surgery. Maybe it is fear. I know I am going to do it, I know this is temp, it is only a week or 10 days out of the month that I am crazy. But I feel so uncomfortable. Today at work was terrible. We had a shooting in the parking lot, so the building went into lock down. I was afraid. As the police drove their ATV's around the building looking for the guy, I couldnt help but call my husband and tell him how scarred I was. Thank god they got him. But I dont usually react this way. I am so bloated and so scarred. What the heck is going on? I think it is anxiety. It will pass. I worry they are going to cancel the loan. I want this, I need this. My husband needs this, yet I can tell he is afraid too. Thank goodness for the forum. I dont know what I would do. I am scarred about not being able to eat. But I have fatty liver, I have to change my life. I know I can do this. I know he can do this. I know we can do it together.

I get banded on the 19th of Sept, the waiting is a killer. I can't wait. I have been eating all the things I shouldnt but I want to kinda say goodbye to the foods that I should no longer eat. Kinda dumb I know. Keep me up to date of your progress, since I am right behind you on the band wagon, maybe we can keep track of eachother.

I fly down on the 18th and get banded on the 19th, baring no hold ups. I wonder if anyone will be down there with me? Wish you were going to still be there. Need to have a posse to hang out with.

That is so funny that someone had panties signed after surgery. What a great idea, I will wait and see if they ever end up on ebay. HA! I think I will have my husband read the post, he has no idea what he is walking into, he is just going along with what I say. The poor guy. I think the drs will explain to him but I dont want him to tell them I have told him nothing. He needs to be clear. Thanks for all the information.

This all sounds horrible ug! I found a woman who comes down to Portland Oregon twice a month to do the fills. She sounded real nice on the phone and said she has many patients. She said she has done this for over 10 years so I am going to use her once I get my band. I sure hope she doesn't do me like that, I will freak out. I would never go back to someone who did that to me. That is horrible. You are not a pin cushion geesh. I dont like needles but if they cant get it right, dang it give it to me, I will do it myself. Proebely not advised but you get my point. I wish I could afford to go back to OCC every time but I know I wont be able to do that. I sure hope you are ok, that is just terrible.

She emailed me back and said she cant get financing because her x wrecked her credit. Geesh if they will give credit to me, they will anyone. HA! just kidding. No really though, she should try. I sure dont want some persons face on me and then image, you lose the weight then you have this skin with the face just sagging there. I'm sorry not a pretty picture. If I get some sagging skin, I sure want it removed and I dont want no face on there. UG

Is there any little boy stuff. My little guy is a 5t. I looked for the link I could not find it, I must be blind.

I am so happy for you. He came around and saw the light, excellent. I hope you wont have anymore delays. I can't wait to hear about your experience with the surgery. I am really glad that my husband is going with me. I think that will be better for you too. Take care and let us know how things are going. Oh and tell him I wont be coming there to beat him up now. HA!

Then she put up this one and changed the price. http://cgi.ebay.com/Lap-Band-Surgery_W0QQi...1QQcmdZViewItem

I responded and told her to come to this site, but who knows what is up with that, she is asking too much. HAHAHAH

He's a jerk, tell me where he is and I will go beat him up for you. Fat girls unit. We can still fight, HA, My friend is almost 300 pound and is almost a black belt. He dont know who he is messing with. So what if we are a few extra pounds, we can get rid of that. He can't get rid of his ugliness, what a terrible person to leave a poor dog in the car. Poor thing. You dont worry about him. God will get him for being nasty, he probebly already has. You did the right thing. Dont you let him upset you.

Do you have one you want to share? My blog is http://stormyfindingmywayback.blogspot.com/ My myspace is http://www.myspace.com/stormys007 I am going to update and keep track of the progress I make. I love the blogging. I also put a blog on there too. Love it. I know I am crazy. HA!

I better warn my husband, thank goodness we have two bathrooms. We both plan to go back to work afterwards. This is not going to be fun at all.

I too read that a woman who had fertility issues, like I do, got pregnant after she got her band. That kinda freaked me out. I am 40 and although I think about the fact that my time is running out. I am not sure I want another one. I went to my obgyn and told her that I wanted birth control and she said she can not put me on the pill because of my fatty liver. She can not give me really anything because of the issues I had. She just recommended condoms. I have no desire to use those. So we are playing russion rulet over here. I was sick for 8 months when I had my son. So sick they put me on meds to try to help me not be sick. I sometimes think that is why he has autisum. Although that can not be proven. I just can't imagine being sick another 8 months in my life ever again. It is not having the baby that scarres me, it is the being sick that would scare me. So I guess once I am banded, I better tell him to leave me alone. HA! just kidding. Not sure what we are going to do.

Ok so let me get this straight. I am grossing out here. When I get my band, I am going to have diarreria. Oh my gross. Now my concern is will it be controllable. Not to be gross but I have had the wattery kind you cant control. I dont want anything to do with that. I plan on going back to work after I have this done. Are you telling me that for weeks after this I am going to be pooping my brains out. Please tell me this will be controllable. UG

I agree with Phoenix, this is about control. You can tell him that you are sorry if he is offended but this is not about him, this is about you. Be very careful, I see red flags too. I know you love him but taking care of yourself is first. This guy may be real trouble. You never see it until you are blind sided. Control is a form of abuse that people dont see. Dont let him control you but remain safe. You already made the decision to have the surgery. Dont let him change your mind. No one is going to leave you there dead. He is freaking out for nothing. He just lost control. Poor baby. I hate men like this. If he was right, he would of said, ok your going down there, can I go with you. I didnt see that anywhere in the conversation. Ohh it makes me want to come down there and tell him off. HA! just kidding. Take care of yourself. I hope you will go and take care of yourself.

I totally agree with what you are saying. I have no idea if mine is a complusion or what. I eat and then if my son doesnt finish his meal, in my mind, I feel like I need to help him. Especially if it is something good. So I have attempted to make his meals smaller so he can eat the whole thing without my assistance. He is a very picky eater and I have this thing about wasting food. Everyone is right, we can not consider the band a fix all for our issues. I am hoping that with the band it will help me to understand what I need to do and have a tool to use to do what I need to do, to be healthy. I think that counseling is an excellent idea for those who can afford it. I think there is always a reason why we do things like this. I just haven't figured it out yet. I have to let go of the fact that food is going to get wasted, that is just the way it is.

Ok yes, I am crazy. I am going to count ever freaking minute. I am excited, worried, scarred. Every emotion that is possible. My husband is freaking out. He is on this job and it has to get done by Tuesday and he is worried they are going to lay him off. I keep telling him just do what you can do and it will be alright. I am going to concentrate my efforts on trying to pay off some bills, since I will soon have a loan to pay for ( I hate loans. I am scarred of something going wrong afterwards. My dr ran some test to check my liver, those results should be in next week. I know I have fatty liver. He said once I lose weight that it should be good. I keep wondering what I should eat now, that I may not be able to eat later. It is nice outside, I should just go for a walk but I am tired. I can't wait for the surgery to be over. I guess my biggest worry is my son. I have never been away from him. How is he going to handle it? He is not going to understand. He can't talk, he has autism. He is not going to be able to tell anyone how afraid he is that we are gone. I am doing this for him. I am going to try to explain this. That he will be ok. I will call him every night, even though he can not talk to me. I will let him hear my voice and tell him I love him. How scarry, it all makes me sad. I hope the person I picked to care for him will be good and really treat him with soft gloves. He is my little man, I would die if something happened to him. ( I am going to hold him every night very close to me. Once this is over, I hope hubby will be ok. He is really nervous about something going wrong. I am trying to stay positive that it will be ok. We are going to lose this weight, we have to..

I tried to go on there but it said there was no room. Did I do something wrong?

I went to see my dr and told him about the surgery and he said he did not want to scare me but the band does slip and I need to be aware that it can go up or down and that this is something that happens and I should consider this before I do this. Talk about freaking me out. I know this can happen but I wonder what is the percentage of people that this happens too and how can I prevent this from happening. I really dont want this to happen to me or my husband.

We fly in on the 18th and will have surgery the 19th, maybe we will see you there. I will be with the guy who looks kinda like santa claus. HA! kidding

I called Senior and Disabled Services, protective service hotline to report this. All they did was call my mom and ask her if she was ok. I was so angry. This was about a year ago. She told them she is fine and it is all a misunderstanding. They didn't even go out there. I need to find an agency that will go there to assist her with getting out of that trailer. At least for the day. She sits there and does nothing. Now she is going to end up being a baby sitter because my neice moved in there with her kids. If she can't take care of herself, she cant take care of kids. I am going to follow your advise and get on the soc sec site and check out my options. Thanks again everyone. I dont know what I would do without such great people like you guys.

She said something about that, but I dont know how often they ask about where the money goes. I dont want mom to lose her soc sec, I just want it to go to the right place "her". I know what my sister is doing and it drives me crazy. She will be calling me next week to buy moms meds again and I am flat broke, everything I have in savings is for the trip next month, I can't tell her that or she will want it. It is non of her business. I just feel bad for mom, cause I can't continue to help her.