Lisa, thank you so much for your openness and honesty. I almost had gastric bypass 1 year ago just because my insurance would pay for it and not the lapband!! Hadn't found this forum at that time and when I had to quit my job, lost my insurance etc. I thought I'd be fat forever. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason whether we can figure it out or not they do. Best wishes for a new beginning and do keep us posted.