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  1. AlanaH
    So its been a long time since I've come on this site .... This is where it all started for me. Where I found Dr. Ortiz and this great community and .... where I've made some great friends. I can come here and not feel judged as we all have something in common.
    I was banded in August 2008 and lost some weight. In December 2008 I received the best Christmas present every -- a positive pregnancy test. A little leary of it, due to two miscarriages before - I had Kate in September 2009. Went in for a lap band fill a week after Kate was born and was down to my lowest weight I had been in years!! 219 pounds! That fill I had was my last with that Dr. I didn't feel comfortable with this doctor. His manner / attitude sucked and made me feel like crap that I hadn't lost more weight (70 pounds had gone).... Never went back ... and left with the fill he gave me.
    I've been trying ever since to lose the weight -- but its been sneaking up on me. Since I didn't like the fill Dr. here, I decided that on my most recent trip to Florida I would go and see a nurse there for a fill -- wow! What a treat to have a proper fill under fluro! She took out the fill that I had - me thinking I had about 2.5cc in my band only had about 1.5.... so the Dr. that did my fills previously didn't put that in! Ugh -- no wonder my restriction was never that great! She checked on my band & port - everything is in great position and nothing wrong!
    I left that fill appointment feeling rejuvenated ...a new me! I got my post fill instructions and have followed it ever since! My restriction is fantastic! The fill was March 1 - today, May 10 - was my first day that I have been actually hungry. I have not wanted to eat since I had my fill - I have literally had to force myself to eat food since that day. With that said --- the scale has only moved 6 pounds since the fill I find this depressing but I know that I have lost inches! I went from wearing a size 18 in Florida to a 16 before I left! My bras no longer fit me in the shoulders and fall off .... just tonight, I put on a new pair of underwear that fit! I have never been able to wear "nice" underwear - I like to stick to my granny panties! hahahaa But today it felt good to try them on and have them not "roll down" when worn! So I know I'm losing inches! Woohoo!!!
    The nurse told me while in Florida that I needed some blood work done. To check my thyroid. My levels have come back normal, but she really wanted me to check on the Reverse T3 levels cause that can also show that I'm hypo.... I have all of the symptoms but so far my bloodwork has come back normal and I'm just waiting to get the Reverse T3 done. I am definitely going to be traveling back to FL to get my band filled again! She was awesome and had so much knowledge. She told me that she has over 700 patients!!
    Today is May 10th .... I gained 7 pounds the night before last because I was constipated ... a couple of dulcolax tablets and I've lost 6 ... I felt "full". I feel much better now and tonight, decided to get on the elliptical for the first time since January! I haven't been hungry - I literally have to FORCE myself to eat food during the day. I have something for breakfast and its 2pm before I remember to eat. I do have a busy job, but even when people remind me that its lunch, I have no desire to eat! I'm low on iron - I take some wonderful iron pills each day.
    I have never once regretted getting the band .... I have thought about the sleeve. The band is a tool to help me lose weight and it won't do it for me. My mom is coming out on June 13th -- my goal is to lose 10 pounds before she comes out. 238 today ... .lets see what tomorrow brings!!

  2. AlanaH
    Well .... I still haven't lost any weight in the last little bit --- I think its completely because of my crummy diet and lack of exercise. I did change that two days ago - where I started my Wii Fit again and do about an hour of step on it and changed my diet to be completely healthy foods for a week before my next fill. Its discouraging and I have to stop weighing my self each day because its depressing. I feel good though -- I've lost in inches and I can feel it in my clothes and from the reactions of people who haven't seen me for a few days or even a week - so that helps. Do you always have to lose pounds? Inches are good too right? However, I want to see that scale move down! I NEED it .... just even 2 pounds would give me the extra "boost" that I need to kick start me again.
    I know the exercise is going to help -- my job is so sedentary that I'm afraid my butt is going to stay stuck in my chair ... so I've been forcing myself to get up and outta my office and walk around the hospital that I work at. Thank goodness I drink 2 liters of water in the morning cause them I'm forced to get out of my office and run to the bathroom This weekend we are going away so I can't exercise but I will watch what I eat like a hawk. I have another fill scheduled for next Friday, but think I will cancel it and make it the following week. I am learning what I can and can't eat -- what gets stuck and what doesn't. But the fill will definitely help me....
    I just needed to come here and write my thouhts out and I know I haven't been on here for a while --- perhaps I should up my time on here again for the great support that every one gives.
    Anyway, I hope everyone has a good weekend --- we are off to the city and hope that the snow stays away until we get back --

  3. AlanaH
    ...... otherwise I'm never going to lose any more weight! AHHHHHH!!!!! I've been "stuck" at 240 now for a while, and I had a fill last week and I'm hoping that there will be some restriction with this one. I do get full quicker and I do take smaller portions but I know that I need more of it (the fill I mean). But I think what is really slowing me down is my non-active lifestyle. I really do .... so tonight, because I'm not a gym person, I'm going to spend an hour on my Wii -- half hour doing step and the other half hour doing fun stuff. Maybe I'll do half Wii and half Dance Dance Revolution -- either way I have to get my heart beating faster to burn those calories!
    On a happier note though ..... I bought some Christmas PJ's at Superstore yesterday in an XL and tried them on last night. Thinking that they were going to be "tight" ..... nope not at all! So.... my pounds may be slower but my inches are going quicker! I even bought a long sleeve shirt from there and it fit! And I find that Joe sizes aren't as "giving" ... so I'm very happy. Its little things like that, that keep me going!
    :girl_witch:
  4. AlanaH
    We went away on vacation .... if you could call it that! It was almost a week and I wish I could say I had a fun time for the entire trip but really didn't. Its kind of sad because I was visiting my husbands family. Don't get me wrong, I love them all .... but a few of them are a little wingnut-like .... seriously. It was way too stressful for me at times and it caused Devin and I to fight (because of his mom). We're both just happy to be at home now and in a normal environment! We'll do it all again October 2009! hahahahahaha
    I didn't get a chance to be on the site much while I was away. Infact I don't even think I brought out the laptop that much while we were gone. I did well with eating -- all things considering. We really didn't have much choice but to eat out - my first time eating solids and I had to have a meal out .... but I ate very carefully and cautiously and in the end gained 5 pounds have have since lost it all. I also didn't have a chance to have much water while I was gone but now I'm drinking it like crazy. I find that its hard to drink alot of it but know how important it is to get it all in. I also find that I'm not hungry. In the morning when I wake up I am hungry but for lunch and dinner I'm not at all .... so I have to force myself to eat.
    Looking forward to my first fill --- October 2nd .... just hope I can lose a few more pounds before hand.
    I love my band!
  5. AlanaH
    So I live about 5 hours from Edmonton, in what feels at times like the farthest north you can go in Alberta (I know its not, it just feels like it). Fort McMurray isn't "home" right now, we're just up here to get some experience and pay off some bills and hope to return to civilization and mountain in two years. I was worried that having Lap Band surgery would create a bit of an issue with where would I go for my fills. I was going to see a doctor in Calgary that many people recommended as I really can't afford to get a flight from here to San Diego every time I needed a fill. If I was able to find one in Edmonton, I would have taken that too .... however.....
    While I was away in Tijuana, a co-worker of mine had a patient (I work in the Operating Room) who had lap band surgery done in the US and was quite forthcoming that he saw a local doctor here in town and he did his and his wife's fills. So I called the office yesterday and asked the girl if there was a possiblity and she said yes. Then I mentioned I had my fill from Dr. Ortiz in Mexico .... and she said "oh, then I'll have to check, I'm not sure" .... my heart sunk and could only hope that he'd say yes. She promised to call me back today and that she did -- I now have a fill doctor here in town ad I don't have to travel for it! YAY!!!! I'm not opposed to going back to Tijuana for a fill, or even to see the doctor in Calgary who specializes in Bariatric surgery ... but this helps. The cost is $70 and I don't have to miss a day of work for it! If I don't like him, well then I find someone else, but this just really takes a load off the stress meter as I was panicking as to who I could find to do my fill and have it coincide with a long weekend so we could drive out.
    It makes the pain and suffering of gas pains today not matter at all --- this truly has made my day! And on a happy note too -- I weighed myself (I have to stop doing this but I'm so excited each morning) -- I'm down 19 pounds since I started my preop diet a month ago. I tried to update my ticker here at work but couldn't so I'll try at home. Thats almost 20 pounds that had taken me 3 years to lose .... I'm also starting to drink more liquids now and feeling a bit better. Thank goodness cause last night I was starting to think that being hit by a train to put me out of my misery was a good idea!
    My husband also got a phone call from his mom last night to say that his grandpa passed away. Devin is upset about it and its hard when someone you love hurts like that. Unfortunately he's also in the mad stage as he's upset that it took 3 days for his family to find out that his grandpa passed away. My family is different than Devin's where my mom calls my grandma every day and if she can't I do ..... Devin's family doesn't really do this and since being married, he's realized how close my family is. We're heading back to Nova Scotia in two weeks and they said that they'll just wait to have a memorial then when everyone is home (we're going back for a wedding) ..... what a week I tell ya. I hate this much stuff happening .....
    Well another hour and half before I head home for the day --- wooohooo!!!! I'm going right to the couch, after I make myself some broth. One more day til I get creamy liquids and I'm all over that like crazy!!!

  6. AlanaH
    So today is my first day back to work .... its 11am and I think I'm dying. Ok, that may be a little over dramatic and I'm not actually dying but boy does it feel like it! I think I went a little overboard while in Tijuana and San Diego and for that its my own fault. The day after surgery I did the Tijuana City Tour and as fun as it was (and not all that happy about the sunburn I got) I probably shouldn't have gone on it because the bus ride was fairly bumpy. Sunday (two days after surgery) my husband and I walked Sea World. I definitely got my walking in, however, I must have looked like a 90 year old woman shuffling along. I have gas in my back / neck and its killing me. I thought at first it was a kink but its definitely not that. And really, other than that --- my pain is minimal except where my port is .... I find that the most painful and have to hold it each time I walk or get up or sit down.
    Other than that - I definitely don't regret getting banded ... never will I. From the day I started my pre-op to now, I've lost 17 pounds. I now feel like I'm doing a colon cleanse though -- time to get some fiber in me! Slow things down a bit! And this Friday I can start my "creamy stage" and I'm all over that like a .... I dunno ... something! I'm going to savor that first drinkable yogurt .....
    This has been hard, I won't lie to myself or to anyone -- it definitely hasn't been a walk in the park. I didn't realize exactly how much my life had revolved around food. Tasty, scrumptious food ..... But in time, I'll be able to eat again, but just not right now --- 21 days of liquids and then I'm good to go - and on to eating healthier foods at a smaller quantity. Dr. Ortiz was right, be careful of that mental hunger - its the worst. My husband has been great with the food - he did stop off at Tim Horton's yesterday and brought me some chicken broth that they had strained for dinner. He too had soup, but he got all the noodles and veggies in his ... and of course a bun But he's trying to help me thru this stage and for that, I'm so very greateful!
    I'm hoping to get away early today --- I'm glad I work at a hospital and they know that I'm not faking this pain as they see it every day. I wanted to stay all day, but I'm exhausted and just feel ill ..... and my couch is sounding a lot better!
    I'm so happy that I've lost some weight - when I see the scale go down it makes me realize I made the best decision I could! Hopefully I can lose another 10 before we leave for Nova Scotia on the 9th and have a thinner face for those pictures! I've got a long road to travel down, but I know that I definitely can do it!

  7. AlanaH
    So its been a stressful week ..... We rent out a room in our house and our guest here seems to have moved right on in. Its been driving me nuts. So we finally asked him to leave as it was just too stressful with him invading our personal space. A really nice guy, but for my own sanity, he's got to go. I've found though that I'm not as much of a biotch this week because of the pre-op diet. It was mainly due to the stress of our renter .... my pre-op diet is going much better than what it was last week. I think my stomach must have shrunk cause now I'm completely full after a Lean Cuisine. Last week I wanted to eat another one so badly .... but I don't feel like that. So thats good. Granted it could be because I've got so much water floating around in my body I couldn't put another ounce of anything in!! Anyway he leaves on Thursday and I'll be happy.
    Our flights are booked and my deposit has been paid. Yay!!! We arrive into San Diego from Edmonton via Salt Lake City. I'm glad we got a morning flight but then was thinking about it -- if its at 6am, I have to be a the airport at 4..... because we have pre-clearance for US Security ..... my cousin lives about 35 minutes from the airport ... what was I thinking?!?!?! :lb12: We get in around noon and I hope we can have a nice relaxing afternoon in Tijuana. What have people done there? I have to head off to the grocery store to pick up some Mexican laundry soap and Clight (their Crystal Light with way better flavors than ours!) but not sure what else to do ..... I have enough Mexican arts ... ideas? Our flight back leaves at 6am on the Monday so we have to be at the airport early again ... blah! I wish we had more time, but I'm lucky my husband was able to get the time off work and i don't want to take much time off either .... If anyone reads this --- how long were you off work? And I may be pushing myself here -- but how did you feel two days afterwards? Well enough to go to Sea World?
    Starting tomorrow I'm biking it! Well biking in the basement (we sleep down there) and when my alarm goes off I'm going to get right on that bike for 15 minutes and then get ready for work! I've lost 5 pounds so far but I need to lose more -- I still have three weeks but .... I have to lose 13. No stress though ... none what-so-ever! Its the long weekend here and we may head down to Edmonton - we want to go camping, but I don't know how much fun I'm going to have if I can't have marshmallows and hot dogs for breakfast?!!? ( So if we don't go camping I may ask my husband if we can head to the mall and look for a "goal dress" ... something that I can work for. I see all these pictures of people with their dresses or outfits and I want one too!! So we'll see what I can find!
    Well, we're in the middle of a nasty thunderstorm and I think I should probably head to bed .... I'm so glad I have this site!
    :-h
  8. AlanaH
    Holy cow ..... so I'm on day two of the pre-op diet with Ensure for Breakfast & Lunch and then a Lean Cuisine for dinner. I've probably drank enough water to equal a small lake today ..... and I learned you don't always have to flush the toilet every time you pee, especially if you go 5 times in an hour. Last night I thought I was dying -- I really truly did. I'm surprised my husband didn't leave me ... boy was I moody! Nasty moody! But I figure today is a little better and I'm getting used to this liquid diet thing .... and hey ... if I really want to make a change I have to start here. Dr. Miranda told me that I need to lose 13 pounds --- I've probably pee'd that out alone tonight! hehehe .... But my husband is wonderful and came home with a card today to tell me that he supports me and loves me and will be there every step of the way......
    I came home from work today starving ..... I could have gnawed off my arm or a leg! My husband picks me up at 3pm and drives me home and then heads back to work for two hours so I'm home alone ..... looking at the fridge, the cupboards .... everything and anything that contains food. I wanted to badly to sit and eat dinner with him - last night and tonight, I just couldn't do it. I had to eat my Lean Cuisine for dinner at 3:30 .... I had a headache when I went to bed last night and one when I woke up this morning - but once I ate some dinner it went away. I know that my body is adjusting to the calories and everything else ... it'll get better .... right????
    My only complaint I have - is with myself -- why do I drink 2 liters of water around 6pm when I know its going to take hours to go thru me? Its 11pm and I am still peeing .... blah! Tomorrow I'm going to learn to drink it at work and get paid for it! hahahaha
    All in all, I am happy with it - I weighed myself the other day when I completed my questionnaire and thought that it was great, I lost 20 pounds the last time I weighed myself ... until the scale started to flash "low" .... so I got new batteries and weighed myself again and shocked to see what I am at .... I didn't cry or get upset but it was a shocker to say the least. But its a reminder as to why I HAVE to do this ....

  9. AlanaH
    Which makes me wonder if the scale needs new batteries and its just playing with my mind Dear Lord, I hope that it doesn't need batteries because this is just what I need!!! So now my weight is 240.5 (I round down so 240!) and that's almost 30 pounds gone .... gone.... gone .... Wooohoo!!! When I started this I weighed 265 when I wrote it down on my paperwork for OCC, but when I went to start my pre-op I gained 3-4 pounds so .... I started this really at 268. When I started my pre-op it was the end of July / beginning of August. I was banded on August 22nd so I can't really complain about the results at all!
    We had a fantastic weekend in the mountains and away from the town that we live in. We did a little bit of hiking -- I wouldn't actually call it that -- but it was enough to get our heartrates up and go for a good distance. This weight loss ends a fantabulous weekend!!
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  10. AlanaH
    And right before Thanksgiving weekend when we are heading down to the mountains?!?! Grrr..... Oh well, I guess it comes with the season! Things are going pretty good other than being sick --- I have managed to keep my portions of food to be fairly small as I am always full. I can't see this being a bad thing -- I eat but stop when I know I'm full. Unlike before I'd eat, eat and eat some more. I don't feel sick when I eat -- I feel good. I'm going to step on the scale tomorrow or Thursday and weigh myself and see what, if anything, I have lost. Hey, as long as I don't gain I'll be happy .... but I'll be happier when the scale starts to go down more!!!
    Looking outside the window here at work and you know that say -- "red sky in the morning is a sailors warning" ... well thats what I see right now --- dear Lord it better not be the work of snow! We are getting new tires on Friday and we can't have snow until after that!
    :-h
  11. AlanaH
    Well ..... on Thursday I went for my first fill here in town. I was a little nervous but all things went well and he gave me 1cc. I go back on the 22nd for another fill - he wants to put in .5cc and then get me up to 2.5cc. Sounds good to me! I was unfortunately able to eat anything from the time I ate solids to my fill. I didn't over do it...... didn't gain weight, but didn't lose it either. But now -- I notice the scale has started to drop because my portions are limited. And I can feel it. This is the part that I was so excited to get to!
    I'm going to weigh myself on Friday and see what I have lost. One of my surgeon friends at work has told me not to have any more Boost or Ensure. Its hard because in the morning I don't have time for scrambled eggs or anything really. So I grab an Ensure. Its not like I'm having breakfast and then on top of that Ensure. She said that I will gain weight with taking the Ensure ..... Weekend mornings are different, today I had one slice of French Toast. And I was full! Yesterday I had scrambled eggs. So I do eat breakfast, just some mornings during the week are hard. And Devin brought me a salad from Wendy's on Friday for lunch --- I was so surprised as to the amount I was able to eat. I couldn't even make a dent in the salad and I was done!
    I've lost 25 pounds since I started down this road. I have another 99 pounds to go. I'm going to make my next goal 50 pounds .... This band really is the best decision I have ever made. I've been known to not make the greatest decisions at times, but marrying Devin and getting this band is the best thing I have done!
    Devin is refereeing hockey this morning and will be back in 3 hours so I need to plan what I'm making for lunch.....

  12. AlanaH

    Feelin' a little down

    By AlanaH,

    Not sure why -- but I'm feelin' down. Maybe its because its Sunday and I have to return to work tomorrow. I enjoy my job, but right now its not the greatest place to be. We have a new "manager consultant" in who is changing everything around and even though she's not there because of me or my immediate co-worker - she is there for everyone else and the changes she makes do impact me eventually. I can't imagine having her as a nurse when she was nursing ..... I know she can be nice as she is nice to me .... but the atmosphere at work is just not happy right now. I've learned from a couple of jobs that you don't need to get stressed over anything ..... they don't pay me enough money to get stressed at this position to be honest. I don't mean to down grade my position .... but really .... its quite blah. Anyway, nurses are saying they could be leaving, people are bitching and complaining and I've lost my office while she's here so I'm back up front with my co-worker who is strung so tight that when she unravels its scary! Very scary! Don't get me wrong, I like her .... its just she gets a little high strung (very opposite of me).
    I'm stressed too because my mother-in-law is going thru some tough times. I love her to death but happy she's in Nova Scotia and we are in Alberta. The distance is a good thing. We went back for my brother in law's wedding at the beginning of the month and from the beginning of the trip it just kept going down hill. She's been diagnosed with ADD, Depression, possibly OCD and who knows what else. She's off work and because they haven't heard from her about returning (she's on sick leave) they have threatened for her to lose her job, if she hasn't already - she hasn't said anything since we left about it. Anyway, she's also addicted to World of Warcraft .... something that has run her life probably for the last 5 years. This is a woman who was falling asleep at work because she'd only get a few hours of sleep because from the time she got home to the time she'd go to bed -- she'd be playing her game. She doesn't even have time to talk to her son on the phone because she's busing "raiding" or whatever else. I don't have a problem with any games, but when you let it run your life --- we had even planned on having an intervention for her while we were back -- but we decided not to because of her fragile state that she's in. Plus we wanted to speak with her psychiatrist before we did so -- and time just didn't permit. She needs help -- and of course her problems filtered into our problems while we were down. A couple of days before we left she called us and asked for money. We aren't financially well off --- we are living in a gold mine of oil and gas here in Alberta -- but we don't work out at site so done reap the benefits of the salaries some of these people make. But she bought a $450 dress for the wedding and .... needed $200 because she couldn't afford the entire amount. My answer - take the dress back - you don't need a dress like that for the wedding. Did i say that? No -- but I definitely told my husband. He asked me if we could help her -- and I told him we'd have to think about it because we have our own expenses -- but I also know that deep down, helping them financially - is not good. We're just enabling her --- Anyway .... we fly into Halifax at 630am from an overnight flight and who's not there? His mom. at 7am we finally get a hold of her and she had only woken up 10 minutes before that --- after traveling all night ... she couldn't even be there to pick us up - it was an hour and 20 minutes after we landed that she finally showed up .... and it just set the tone for the entire trip. She's obsesses with dressing my niece in all matching clothes. Don't get me wrong - I think kids should look good in their clothes, but if they don't always wear all coordinating clothes .... who cares. She's 2! Well his mom has this fit when my nieces parents don't dress her in clothes that coordinate. It was funny at first, but then just annoying ..... She's spent so much money on her clothes because when she comes from her parents house to Nan's ..... she'll get changed again into something that Nan has bought. You know why she has no money? Because she buys hundreds of dollars of clothes. Anyway, I could go on about that -- but I won't!
    So we go to my brother in laws the night before the wedding --- my husband wasn't in the wedding party (or was his other brother). We were told we had to go to the rehearsal because both brothers were ushers ..... and then we had to go and decorate the hall.... at 1030 at night! (after Bingo of course!) Anyway we were there until 2:30am and then had to get up early the next morning because the bride's mother and father needed help at the hall with the rest of the food. While we were there (the only two and them) she asked me if I would mind staying in the kitchen and ensuring that the food in the buffet stayed full - meaning to top up the turkey, buns, coleslaw ... etc.... I couldn't sit with my family for anything until after dinner .... what was I suppose to say? The bride had two people cancel on her and I felt bad but I was angry as someone else should have done it rather than the sister in law..... Anyway, just glad that night is over and done with .... the next day we are going out on the boat -- my husband's uncle and aunt are taking us out for a boat ride out on the ocean. His uncle told his mom that she couldn't come because there wasn't enough room on the boat .... This day was probably the only great day I had while I was there --- we saw whales, dolphins, seals and had such a great time .... That night we drove back into Halifax and stayed with Devin's mom -- who chewed out Devin because she couldn't go on the boat. All I could hear from the bedroom was "f-this" and "f-that" and she was yelling at him. The door slammed and then he came into the bedroom ... she went out for a smoke and he came in to tell me that she was angry and taking it out on him. It wasn't even him that decided it! Oh and then ... she had the balls to ask for the money ..... we thought knew that if we avoided the subject and stayed away from her --- we wouldn't give her the money -- but she cornered him that night and asked him for it. What did he do? He gave it to her -- so then that caused us to fight .... I don't think I have ever gone to sleep angry at my husband before. Anyway, it Devin talked to her about it and said that we really shouldn't have given it to her because we needed it for bills ... and she sent us the money back. When we left -- she apparently had $40 to her name. I just don't know what to do --- I know that its not really my problem .... but .... I just don't know what to do - I want to help, but don't know what I can do. Its a blessing that i'm here though ..... and away from all of that!
    So our vacation didn't really even feel like a vacation -- and I'm still stressed about it all -- even though I shouldn't be. And i think thats why I may not be losing weight because I'm a little stressed. Plus, we just found out last week that Devin's uncle was diagnosed with cancer .... who will be starting chemo very soon. Oh yeah, we had Devin's grandpa's funeral while we were there too ....
    I go for a fill on Wednesday which I'm excited about - I hope that I'll start losing weight from that day on ..... and the only other thing that has me excited is that we are going down to Lake Louise for Thanksgiving. Devin gets cheap hotels and we're staying three nights for only $100. Otherwise we'd be staying in Banff or Calgary -- but just to be down in civilization will be great too! I miss Calgary too much and can't wait til we're outta Fort McMurray in two years! I also just got my second "aunt flo" after my miscarriage in May --- so I think my hormones are outta whack a little and thats why the "down in the dumps" feeling ....hopefully it'll go away soon. I can't wait until January / February to start trying for a baby and hopefully have no complications this time around! We are going to Mexico in March so that does keep me happy to think about!!
    I know I don't have it bad ..... things could always be worse .... its just sometimes everything seems to add up all at once and gets to be so overwhelming. My parents are in Florida until december now -- and then they are home for a few weeks and take off January 1st for Mexico. I'm missing them alot - I talk to my mom usually a couple times a day and now ... only once every couple of days. My dad sent me a card with $100 in it and its one of those Hallmark ones that you record a message and its my dad saying how happy and proud he is of me and calls me "pumpkin" -- dad's nickname for me growing up. Made me cry but makes me so happy for what I have with my family.
    Anyway, I don't even know why I have written this much -- I guess I just was feeling I needed to get everything out cause its been bottled up inside me now for the last month .... its been driving me nuts!!!
    Time for bed now ----- well, one load of laundry before I do call it a night!

  13. AlanaH
    So I thought I'd come on here rather than stand outside I'm so happy that its Friday .... I've been looking forward to this day since Tuesday when I returned to work from vacation! Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my job -- but some of the girls I work with can be quite bitchy and it just makes for a really long day. I try not to let their bitchiness bother me but its hard.
    My aunt is moving at the end of October and she's starting to pack up some stuff and give it away --- so this weekend we're getting a new queen size mattress and tv from her --- yay!! See we have some roommates and we gave up our bedroom for one of them so we sleep in the basement. That wouldn't be so bad, except, we sleep with the washer and dryer and the furnace ... and on a blow up mattress. So the bed is going to be luxury! We don't need the tv, but it'll be nice to have it though for those days I want to have a nap and watch tv before I fall asleep! Beans is going to love it too!!
    I'm trying to find something for dinner tonight - something that will be easy to eat and the only thing I have with me is a Kraft What's Cooking magazine. I'm thinking a chicken pot pie would be tasty tonight. The chicken will be cut up and there is vegetables in it --- I have to start thinking of creative cooking for Devin & I .... but I think it'll be fun!
    Anyway, I should go and dress for home (I have to get out of the scrubs) and by the time I do that .... he should be here. Maybe we'll stop by Walmart and see if there is DDRevolution for Wii out now --- I need to start exercising and if I can't do sit ups - I need to start doing something!!!
    Have a good weekend everyone!!! :-h
  14. AlanaH

    What a lazy day ......

    By AlanaH,

    What a lazy day!!! Devin had to go to work today so its just Beans & I .... we're having a lazy day on the couch drinking water, watching A&E and thinking of having a nap ... oh yeah, and peeing out that water I'm drinking! At least today I get to watch Matlock, Perry Mason and Murder She Wrote. hehehehe....
    I'm booking my hotel room for San Diego tonight - for the night before we leave to head back up to Edmonton. We originally found one hotel that gave us an airport shuttle for $121US but when I searched a website from Minneapolis that always has good deals .... I found one for mucho cheaper (and still includes a shuttle)! Not that I'm a cheap person, I just think that my $30 I'm saving can go to say something at Bath & Body Works or Target for myself.... or the outlet malls! hehehehe.... Oh how I miss over the border shopping!
    I can't bring myself to stand on the scale this morning --- with all this water, I know that I'll be up. I find weekends to be my hardest in regards to wanting to snack. I think its just because I'm bored. I've done really good - still eating what I'm suppose to -- but last night I had one package of those 100 calories crackers. I "needed" something -- whether it be salt or whatever, I needed it. Yes, I hate myself for having it -- but such is life. Today I'm back on what I need to be doing .... Ensure, Ensure, Lean Cuisine and water. I have the discipline to do this.... but last night I just needed something. I figure it was safer to have that than a chocolate bar or chips or anything else I could find in the house. Anyway, I won't be having them anymore. And we went grocery shopping yesterday - our usual trip is a cart filled with food - but this time it only had Lean Cuisine's and a loaf of bread for Devin. The LC's were on sale for 3/$9 so we bought 12 (plus there were extra air miles -- woohoo!) and I'll only need to buy a few more before I head down. We have cut waaaaaaay down on our grocery bill, we'll probably save $300 a month. yippee!!
    I'm going to save my Wii workout for this afternoon .... for now ... I'm going to have a nap!
  15. AlanaH
    So my Wii Age was 33 the beginning of this morning - not far from the 30 that I am. I decided that while Devin was sleeping with the dog and our roommates were out, I would hop on board and get my workout done. Holy cow --- I'm sweatin' like a pig! But it was good! I did the 30 minute step and it worked out to 2950 steps at a really steady pace. The best thing about the 30 minute free step --- you can watch tv while its going - so I put on the Family Channel for some mindless entertainment and stepped away! I've had Wii fit since it came out -- and have made a effort to do it every day --- except the yoga -- I suck at yoga!
    I did a few more activities afterwards for about 45 minutes on it today and went and re-did my fitness test and I'm down to 32.... one whole year down! hahahah.... Some days I am 29 or 30 .... others a little older. If I don't do it on a daily basis, I slack too much and my age goes up. So here's to doing step every day! At least its some activity!
    I'm down a couple more pounds and finally saw the 250's ..... hopefully this work out will get the pounds off more before I head down later this month! I have to lose 13 and I'm almost there but I'd like to lose more if I can. I've never really been one to at first lose lbs.... inches usually come first and I noticed it yesterday when I changed at work. Because I work in the OR (as a booking clerk) I have to change into scrubs because I'm in a sterile environment. The size that I wear, when I first started, were a little tight but yesterday I noticed I have about an inch on each side of my thigh and the waist is getting looser. I hope that this will amount to lbs lost soon. Either way, inches are good for me too ---
    Its the long weekend this weekend and sadly --- its raining. Although I never hold out for beautiful weather on any of the long weekends here! And Devin found out he has to work on Monday. Which sucks! We had planned on heading to Calgary for the weekend but not now Oh well - its better that we don't cause its too tempting to go to our favorite Italian restaurant there. He wants to go to a movie so thats probably what we'll do. I am going to do another 30 minutes on the Wii later tonight .... I actually enjoy it and any type of exercise that is enjoyable -- is good exercise!
    :-h
  16. AlanaH
    So I just got back from a long walk with my husband and my dog, Beans. Nice night out but the mosquitoes are out to getcha! That they did, guess I forgot to spray on the arms! Oh well, it was nice and long and we kept up a good pace.
    I talked to my mom today and she's told me that her & dad are going to give me the money for Tijuana to pay for and that we'll pay them back. This is such a huge relief for Devin and I..... Of course we won't be paying them back in the next few months but we can do it so that we aren't eating Kraft Dinner for the rest of the year as we can't afford anything else! So its a load of stress off me -- and the fact that our renter is leaving .... wooohooo!! Things are looking up!
    I've only lost 5 pounds on this stinking pre-op diet and hope that the long walks will help. I was going to get on the bike this morning but .... I just couldn't get myself out of bed! So tomorrow ..... I hope! We had a rough day at work today and I didn't have a chance to take a lunch. Power went out in town and at the hospital and we were stuck with patients sitting in the dark and worring about our back up generators that weren't working ..... by the time that everything calmed down, I missed my breaks and lunch .... and my lovely Ensure! Surely this weight must be coming off - however I've never been one to lose pounds first, its always been inches .... and I'm noticing some of my clothes are fitting looser, so maybe something is still happening? Either way, I'm still focusing and staying strong --- I don't know why people knock Ensure .... I quite enjoy it. Granted, if its the only thin you can drink ..... you're kind of forced to like it!
    Well ..... its almost bedtime and I should probably hit the sack. I've got to figure out where we're going to go camping this weekend -- we're thinking Banff but it being a long weekend .... who knows if we can find a site for our tent. Either way, I must get out of Fort McMurray!
    :-h
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