So on Thursday I have my facelift, lower eye lift, fat grafts and a blue peel. Looks like it takes about 6 hours. I arrive to the surgery center at 7:30 and I'm picked up between 2:30 and 3:00. I'm so excited to have this ugly neck done. My face isn't too bad, its the chin that gets me, and you can really see it from the side. The lower eyes are because when they do the new facelift it pulls the face up so they do the eyes at the same time. Fat grafts in the places that have sunken (I have those) and a blue peel to get rid of the fine lines and pigmentation. This is my fourth procedure - I'm not too worried, kind of get the drill by now. I'm more focused on getting my sleep, exercise and eating right so it all goes well. I'm in a bit of a down mood, broke up with this guy I was seeing - I have a problem getting really close to people these days.
When I was going through my weight loss, I would yell from the highest mountain and tell everyone about it. That's stopped, it does come out from time to time - and I'm not trying to hide it, just don't want it to be such a big part of my life - I want it to be my past and just part of who I am. I have a close guy friend and we actually dated, but as usual I broke it off - the only difference is we became great friends and I told him everything. He's picking me up and taking care of me after the surgery and gave me a great example of what my weight loss is. He said that it was like someone who use to smoke and stopped, you had a bad habit, you broke and your on your way to a healthier life. Its not something I have to tell everyone about (do I tell everyone I use to sneak ciggies and smoke) no I don't, its a part of my past.
So besides the facelift and such - I'm kind of thinking of this as a new beginning. This is the first surgery that I've had that is out there and public..... I'm just going for it, I don't care about my past, love it - hug it, but it doesn't shape me - my future does. This procedure is going to change how I look, I'm beautiful now, I'll be beautiful once its done, just something I don't like will be gone and I'll have a bit of a tune up :-)
All of these little changes don't change the core of who I am, I'm still Lisa, just a little bit more confidant and happy. I have to honestly say I like myself. When I look in the mirror, the person who looks back at me, fits how I feel I should look. When I move now and I'm very atheletic - that fits how I feel I should have always been.
Thank you all, love you and I'll let you know how it goes. I can't be on the computar for 6 days after surgery - have to stay off and no talking so see you on the other side.
Lisa