AngieB

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When you can maintence your "area" again, and have the razor burn to prove it! I swear, I felt like Chewbacca! My husband laughs when I say that, and says it wasn't that bad! Just the fact that he said, "it wasn't that bad," is bad enough! Thank goodness for NSV!

Glou - I think streaking would make it interesting. Yeah, streaking gets my vote and makes me smile too! LOL Lab mom - wow 11 lbs! Geesh! She is growing fast! Torky - we have not had snow here yet, I live in Nebraska. My parents in Wyoming have had snow....can't say I am looking to forward to winter....nope....although it will be interesting to see how my little one likes it this year. He was not into it last year, AT ALL! LOL Which sorta was funny. He was tortured by snow. We have 2 pictures of him in the snow, that is it. Only reason we have those two is so we could show my parents he wore the Denver Bronco snow suit. PJTP - TMI alert!! Ha! I have recently lost enough weight to do a decent trim job down below. YAY me! Yay my husband too! LOL Okay, let me say I feel bad for him, it was like fricking chewbacca down there. I am suffering from a bit of razor burn in the crease of my thigh.....can anyone say a bit over zelous with the razor! Yikes! Thank heavens I can once again maintence the "area." Ahh I love NSV!

Have a great time and enjoy yourself! Does your mom need another daughter.....LOL Just kidding but can you say spoiled! Love it! I will be looking forward to hearing about your trip when you come back.

B - coffee ff creamer, greek yogurt, detour bar 29 g protein 360 cals L - insides of a pot-pie 350 cals D - hard taco - turkey burger, ff refried beans, lettuce, tomato, green chili's, low fat shour cream = yummo! 25 g protein 300 cals could only eat 1/2 of it - will take the rest to work tomorrow for lunch. 1010 cals total Vitamin water 60 oz Thinking about sharing a piece of pumpkin pie with my son......undecided.....

I am beside myself this morning. Let me tell you, when I stepped on the scale, it had gone down a tinny bit more 241.8. This is amazing to me! I am assuming the fill I had is really doing its job?! Seems like I am dropping weight pretty fast, more so than I thought I would. Not that I am complaining, it is surprising to me. The foods I am eating are the same as before. In the beginning my weight loss was S-L-O-W or non existent. I was pro-active about getting fills. Each month, I went in and had a fill. I read a post that spoke on the importance of being at the right restriction. I took it to heart and did what it said to do which was keep going until you have restriction. DON’T GIVE UP! I have a tool in my stomach, but it doesn’t do me a bit of good if it is not in working order. I am pleased to report my tool is in working order! It was an expensive process, and I am blessed I was able to keep on going in like I did. Not to mention, my husband was supportive during this time as well. The process of getting to the right level of restriction has been a difficult one. With each fill, I would feel hopeful. After the period of liquids ended, I would feel restriction only to have it slip away in a week or two. The rollercoaster of feeling a level of restriction, YES!….to oh…where did the restriction go. Ugh! Call for another apt. The cycle starts all over again. I had 4 fills in 4 months. Between appointments 3-4 I had lost 8 lbs! Woot! It’s paying off now. I feel great! I am able to eat 3 meals a day. The scale is moving. Eureka! I’d like to NOT have another fill till next year. With the holidays’ coming up, I feel primed and ready. It will be a different year, one of less focus on feasting, and more of a focus on living. My plate size will be different, and I will not be overeating like years past. I will take this opportunity to say again how grateful I am to have this band. It limits me and sets guidelines for me to follow. I not have structure when it comes to food! Hurray!

Welcome back. I am sorry you have gained weight back. I think it is amazing that you stepped out and try it on your own. Good for you.

I have been told to get 20-25 grams a meal. To strive for 60 as a base. My case manager said protein will help me keep my hair. Some days I am sure I don't get my protein in. I do my best.

*Hangs head in shame* rice crispy treats, 1/2 taco from taco bell, vitamin water, coffee , fried egg soft. Not a great day for me. Weekends are a challenge. Week days are better.

Well the scale said 242.5. That my folks is the lowest number I've seen in 2 years. I am pretty sure I will be out of the 240's soon. Maybe next week.....lets hope. I could use a change of scenery. Come on 230's. I know before to long, I will be cleaning out my closet. My 22's are pretty big. Can not wait to give them to someone who needs them! What a great feeling! My husband took our son out today. It feels great to have some alone time. I don't get me time very often. I love my family but I would like some space every once in a while. It would be great if once a month, I could get some time for myself. Guess that is the price we pay for living far away from family. No matter what there is ups and downs to life. I love my husband so much. He is so good to me! The past few hours have been so peaceful! Looking forward to them coming home! I meet with my therapist tomorrow, and I am hoping to hit a hair cut place on the way home. Gonna do a home dye job on my hair tonight.

Some of my closest friends have not noticed. There have been 3 people who have made genuine compliments. To be frank, most of my coworkers are to tuned into their own lives to pay to much attention to me. Once I mentioned how much I had lost in casual comncersation and my friend looked suprised. I am wearing cloths that hides my bulk, so it doesn't come as to big of a suprise. I have lost a pot of weight in my face. My hubby has definitely noticed!!!

IT IS AWESOME! LOL

Odette - your comments mean alot to me. There are far to many of "us" in the world today. Many who have suffered far more than I have. I am not ashamed of what happened to me as a child, however I do still feel pain from it. Sometimes, the pain comes as a suprise to me. I sometimes am suprised at how I can feel so emotional about something that happened so long ago. I am 33 as I write this. I am so glad you have joined the forum, and look forward to hearing more from you. My heart goes out to your sister. I am happy that she failed at her attempt to commit suicide, and am sorry for her pain. I hope she can find peace. She is blessed to have you as a sister!

B - Coffee with FF Cream 100 cals S - Piece of bread with chocolate chips in it. Not sure what its is or who made it.....someone at my work. L - Grilled Chicken with Sweet Baby Rays BBQ sauce. The sauce should be OUTLAWED! LOL S - 2 chettos D - Papa Murphys take and bake. Thin crust pizza. Striped the toppings off the crust ate those. Ended up picking At my sons piece. He ended up eating my crust. 1 - odouls Zero calorie drinks 60 oz Every time I get up from my desk, I take the long way back, do the stairs. Going for a walk tonight if it doesn't rain on me.

I am feeling strong emotions. Some admittedly are unhealthy. I really want to lash out and say cutting remarks. So far, I have remained silent. By keeping silent, it fuels my anger inside. What do I turn to? Food. Gosh I wish I could snap my fingers and be the picture of health. Not feel all twisted inside when things from the past surface. I get really tired of this darn onion and its layers. For example, when my mother, who by the way I love dearly, brings up Kenny and his wife, I want to make a remark like this: Oh…Kenny, the man who use to have me stroke his penis….. Now that doesn’t do anyone a bit of good. By doing my best to take the high road during this time, I am putting myself through more emotional toil. To add to my stress, I have my cat, which is urinating on my carpet. This is not acceptable. I have run the gamut with solutions. Moving the cat box to where he is peeing, spraying the cat deterrent on the area where he has urinated, as well as keeping the cat box super duper clean. When he gets mad, he does his deal. Cleo is very special to me, and I love HIM so much. My son loves him and the cat loves my son. It kills me to think of surrendering him, or having him put down. He is so affectionate and I’ve had him for 8 years. Nothing is wrong with him, other than his has a strong personality. This is putting a strain on me, and my husband. God bless my husband, he know how much I love Cleo and has been very supportive. Jim has even helped clean the cat box, and has been great about steam cleaning the carpet. He is being supportive and letting me come to terms with this. When I think I can have him put to sleep, something happens and I change my mind. Like I see how well Daniel and he get along. It makes me sad. I don’t know what to do. Me being me, I feel this stress and I want to eat. If food is not the problem, than eating is NOT the answer. When I turn to food, I feel bad for eating. Then I step on the scale and feel worse for gaining weight. Insanity is repeating the same behavior expecting a different result. I want to stop the insanity! Last night, I asked Jim to feed him and Lil D. I went up and lay in bed. Had some solace time. Amazing what an hour of me time will do. I laid there and let myself feel, just be. It felt good not to pay attention to myself and not have to push myself or have any responsibilities’. Then my hubby and son came up, we watched a cartoon with Lil D and put him to bed. We turned in early, I was emotionally tired. My two days of eating racked up 1.5 lbs of extra weight. Not to bad, not that great either. I don’t want to give Kenny power over me. When I eat to feed my feelings I am directing energy and power in a misguided direction. Today, I am empowering myself. I am going to eat healthy and take care of myself. I can feel emotional pain and not have to eat. Today, I am making a change for the good! Thank goodness for this band! I am so grateful to have it.

Okay, I wanted to ask. I was not sure if you where having signs or symptoms you hadn't mentioned. I am watching myself close right now. I had a fill on Friday and have been adjusting. I have Pb'd this week. Uhhh. This moring, when I took my calcuim pill it must have gotten stuck. When I took another drink, I ended up having it back up in my throat. WOW! That is the 1st time that has happened. Now I will be cutting my pills in 1/2. I am eating lunch a little early today, and have not had an issue at all. I wondered if the salad would give me grief, but nope, had my salad and all was good. Phew! Meat balls went down great too. Even had a bit of my sons Mickie D's ff's, and a bite of his chicken nugget. Restriction is strange.....maybe I should take my calcuim a bit later in the day. First thing in the morning might not be the best time to swallow pills.

Sabrina hang in there! You know you will be back there.....just a matter of a few days! Carrie, do you really think you maybe to tight? Your food logs look great and you don't talk about pbing.

You can go alone. You will be taken care of 100%. No worries!

I would fall out laughing. (But then I have been known to be rolling in the isles of the Halmark store while shopping for just the right card too.) Being a parent is the greatest.....at least I can say that right now, it will be a while before mine son is a tween!

This week I am 243.6 Looks like I traded the last 2 numbers spots! 2.7 lbs! I am pleased with that!

B - Greek yogurt 140 cals 14 g protein Oatmeal 120 cals 4 g protein Coffee w ff creamer 80 cals Cals 340 Protein 18 g Black bean patty 210 cals 20 g protein Happy to say I ate lunch with no "issues" I was worried after lunch and dinner "issues" yesterday. I think it will be A-OK! S 3 cheese crackers D low main Bowl of cereal Protein bar Felt like eating......so as you can see I DID! UGH! Total Cals 550 Total Pro 38 g Vita Rain 2 - 20 oz