Hi Beatuyqueen, and welcome to this forum! I have been kicking around weight loss surgery for 6 years. Long time, I know. Yes, my Aunt had GB. She wanted to get the lap band, but her Dr. would not approve the procedure for her. She passed away on the 3rd day after having the GB done. It is still a very shocking subject.
I understand where you are at, and I am so sorry you are alone in the process right now. I thought long and hard about telling my family. In the end, I have to do what is best for me. I do not plan on telling my cousins about it until much much later. It's to hard on them and they have already lost so much.
Much like you, I am not a stranger to hard work, 5 years ago, I lost 100lbs. Strickly diet and excersise. My life and life style are so much different now, I have a husband and a infant/toddler now and am not able to donate or pay as much attention to myself as I once did. It takes a lot ot work and determination, which I still have, but now my resources are spread thin. I am using this lap band as a tool. A stop tool for me to re-train myself how to eat, and more importantly stop eating once I am full.
I want you to know, you are not alone in your journey to weight loss. I am here for you and will be happy to share your journey! Blessings to you, and I hope when you go to get more information, all your questions and concerns will be answered; and you get the information you need to make a decision!
Let's keep in touch!
Angie