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  1. B2010
    Hi Everyone, haven't been here in a long time. Took on some more clients and got a job working outside of the home so needless to say I've been busy busy.
    I wanted to say that I have found that even without a fill I do have restriction. Not sure how much but I've been learning what I can and can't eat. I finally had my first pb experience. ugggghhh it was awful (well probably not as bad as it could have been) I ate about one tablespoon of rice and my whole system just stopped. I felt it inch down my throat and took about twenty minutes to actually feel better again. So lesson learned - won't eat rice again.
    I've also noticed that there is NO way even if I wanted to eat what my mind wants to - that I could possibly do it. Whenever I think I'm going to sit down and finish even a chicken breast I can only finish about half.
    I can tell the difference in restriction when eating protein vs. eating processed foods. I have way more restriction in eating just protein first. So for those that don't feel they have any restriction with or without a fill - make sure you're eating your protein first thing.
    I'm a little nervous about getting a fill because of the fact that I already feel some restriction but will go to my first appointment in about a week and see how things go.
    I've lost about 18 lbs so far 10 pre-surgery and 8 over the course of the last month. It's slow but steady so I'm happy with it.
  2. B2010
    So here I am 8 days left until I can finally eat. I can still honestly say I've felt good, not terribly hungry. When I am hungry it's still at the dreaded 2-5pm time frame of the day. So I've just been eating my biggest "meal" if you can call it that - during that time of the day.
    I was able to move on to creamy soups which is like fricking heaven after all this time of drinking clear liquids. I found that the drinkable yogurt was just too thick for me. I would drink it and it just felt like it sat in my stomach - so I would only drink about 4oz of that a day. Now that I'm on to creamy soups i've just kind of given up the yogurt.
    My port is still a little tender. When I sneeze or roll onto it it's still a little tender. I think it will take me longer than I thought to get used to having this inside of me.
    I'm still losing so far - not as much as I was those weeks of clear liquids, but if it's coming off i'm happy. My mom and nieces even noticed that my face didn't look as 'swollen" as it had - so I was happy to hear that. I feel a difference in my weight - so that keeps me motivated to stay on track and not go crazy. Even on this section of the liquid phase I find myself reasoning why I can have something that's super high in calories. But so far I've resisted and stuck to "the basics" as Dr. Ortiz had said. If you're losing weight on a certain diet then I'm going to stick to it because obviously my body is reacting to that.
    I can say my mental hunger is poking it's head up a little more frequently in these last few days. I've always craved sweets and that was my weakness but now I want meat!! uuuggghhh my first meal is going to be chicken for sure. Which craving chicken isn't a bad thing. I'm actually surprised I'm not craving anything sweet.
    Looking back so far on this journey I can still say that day 1-4 were the absolute hardest for me and the rest of the time has been a mental challenge but not so much a physical one. I still can't believe I've gotten this far - but it's truly given me a lot of courage to be strong in some of the areas of my life that I have given up on.
  3. B2010
    Man - I did a stupid thing. I ordered pizza for my son and his friend spending the night this past weekend. uuuggghhhh that was the worst fricking torture yet.
    I didn't eat any but it took all of my will power to refrain. It helped that my port area is still sore and that not a lot of times do I forget I have this band. I'm still getting used to the idea of having this foreign object in my body. I hope that it gets less weird
    Other than that - hunger has been ok. Again, still not as hard as the first 3 days but I have been feeling a little bit more tired these past couple of days. I've been sleeping really great thought (which I usually don't do). Not sure if that's because of lack of food or what.
    I was able to have the drinkable yogurt today and in 2 more days I'll be able to have a protein drink. the drinkable yogurt felt kind of heavy on my stomach - maybe because I wasn't used to the thickness - but I couldn't drink all that much of it.
    If they could just invent a drinkable pizza flavored substance lol I'd be skinny in no time
    I'm trying to drink more water but my stomach always feels full. Is this the band? I thought I wasn't supposed to feel this way yet. Well I guess it's a good thing. I haven't been able to drink a ton of juice but I've been drinking cranberry juice lately because the crystal light is getting old and i know my body needs the calories.
    My BM are pretty....well nasty. I don't really like having liquid as my BM but hey I guess it goes with the territory.
    I've been loosing about a pound a day since surgery. I think it took my body a few days in the beginning to shed the water I was retaining from after surgery - but I'm happy with the weight loss so far. I'm finally to my surgery decision weight which was 200. So now it's down to bigger and better things
    I feel like at this point in the process I'm just going through the motions. Not really thinking about what I'm going to eat my first day of solids - but just trying to get through it.
    This is a tough process. I'm proud of myself that I've made it so far.
  4. B2010
    I really can't believe that I've made it now 6 days without food. It's crazy talk to me.
    Ok - so I was right the first 3 days were really kind of hell for me but day 6 - it's WAY easier. I don't have the hunger/gas pains that I was having for the first 3 days. Thank God because not sure how long I would have made it feeling like that. Looking back though I'm thinking it was more gas than anything - but I'm just grateful it's over.
    I'm even really surprised that I'm not that tired. I have been cleaning, and doing school work and working without a problem concentrating at all.
    physical check - my port is still a little sore and the site of my iv is tender to the touch too but I can tell it's getting better. I can stretch and not feel like my port is ripping away. Sounds gross - but that's kind of how it feels.
    So how have I been staying on liquids for 6 days? It's like a mental zone I think. There is something about knowing that I went through getting this procedure that has switched something in my mind. Like - hey - Bianca you've went to the extreme of getting this procedure done, going to Mexico alone, and committing to a liquid diet for 21 days....you don't have an option now to just give up. I used to be able to stay on a "diet" for like a day or not even a day until around 3pm and then I'd be starving and just say screw it - I'm already fat - another 2000 calories wont make me fatter.
    To be honest, one of my favorite fast food restaurants Burger King, hasn't even been a thought in my mind. I haven't even thought - I wish I could eat this or that. I've thought....how cheap is my food bill going to be and what will I spend the extra money on every month that I'm not gorging myself on food. hmmmmm maybe a pedicure. Geez what a relief - I feel like this lapband has given me freedom to finally live my life and I feel that way without being even close to the weight I want to be.
    I can sum it up in one word and that is hope. This procedure has given me hope that my efforts will pay off and I will be in a healthy physical and mental state.
    Oh one final thing - the time that I do feel a hunger pain is around the 2-3pm mark until about 5 or so. I usually have a few sugar free popsicles, some warm broth, and some juice. But for the rest of the day I'm just sipping on water, or crystal light and things are fine.
    God this is so amazing......i'm just in awe that i'm on day 6 - maybe I CAN do this
  5. B2010

    3 days post-op

    By B2010,

    So I'm finding the liquid phase post-op is hard as hell. Luckily the fear of having a slipped band has kept me on course for the last 3 days, but this is probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
    I'm not sure if it's hunger pain, or gas, or what but at times my stomach feels like the worst hunger pains I've experienced ever. I'm on day 4 of clear liquids and so far (it's 9:30am) hunger pain has been minimal this morning. I'm hoping that getting passed the first 3 days was the hardest and that I will have some sort of relief for the days ahead.
    I can say that right now it's not a mentaldon't bother thing with me. The mental thought of not eating isn't really bothering me. I feel like I have so much time now . Even preparing my sons lunches and dinner haven't bothered me. I'm using this time to experiment with some healthier food options and my son is my little guinea pig lol. It's just the physical hunger that I faced - but like I've said so far (day 4) it's gotten easier and I'm hoping it will stay this way.
    It has certainly helped to read others testimonials stating that if "they could do the liquid phase - then anyone can" because that's pretty much how I feel. I guess the band has forced me into making this commitment to myself and my body. Yep - it's a mental tool for now.
    As for soreness - not too much, just in the port area as others have stated. But really just feels like I got a good upper cut in the gut
    I've only had a BM once since surgery - won't go into detail about what that was like but just happy that I had one. My stomach is still pretty bloated and sticking out a little more than usual.
    Still so happy about my decision - I won't lie though I'm a little weird-ed out about thinking I'm like a bionic woman now though with this device inside my body. So far I have fake boobs, the lap band, and a copper IUD. I wonder what archaeologists would think in 10,000 discovering my body. lol....wonder what type of conclusions they would come to about the life I lived.
    anyway - back to work talk to all of you later and again thanks so much for everyone's support. This forum is truly another huge tool for me and a great resource.
    -Bianca
  6. B2010
    I have set my surgery date at OCC for 3/15/10. I'm just wondering if there will be anyone else going down around that same time?
    I'm nervous, excited, and anxious all at the same time. I'm not telling anyone except my fiance. He is very supportive of my decision because he knows how much my self esteem has been crippled by my constant battle with my weight.
    I know if I told anyone else in my family they would think I was crazy - so i'll wait to tell them until they see me losing weight and ask me how I'm doing it .
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