italiannaillady

The first step to a move to Hawaii has turned into a successful relocation from the Bay Area, CA. in June of 2015. It is now New Years Day 2017. I'm in need of a lifestyle change and have committed to discipline myself this year in order to accomplish this goal. I love the plication I received in 2011 and now know that I will always be an emotional eater. "In my own way", so to speak. I have a good support system here and intend to use every advantage God has given me to get out of my own way. I believe my EGO is divided into divisions that have different intentions for my life. My faith has taught me to be aware that my EGO enjoys chaos and anger, creating my bad choices and a vicious cycle that keeps me hurting most of the time. I'm going to the mattresses, to quote "The Godfather". It's an internal war that I intend to win. So far, I have cleaned out the frig and pantry of foods that I know lead to weight gain for me. These foods are for maintenance only. I've given myself till my birthday July 6 to achieve my goal of 40 lbs. I am now 200 lbs. I can do this. I guess I thought my surgery would protect me from old habits and I'd never gain weight again. But, that's just not true. I will get used to eating smaller portions again and use the 3 bite rule for foods I crave. Not eat late in the evening. Cut out sweets. Limit fats and bread. Use my friends as sounding boards regularly. Work out at my gym 3 times a week, 1 hr. min. Journal here once or more a week. HAPPY NEW YEAR and Thanks for Listening

Well, I guess I'm not journaling EVERY day but I'm back today. Today I took a first step toward a move to Hawaii. I think I will be happy living there. I will miss some people but in the long run it's me that has to be happy. I need better weather than where I live now. I also haven't journaled my daily food list since the 15th. Funny how time flies. This could be why I'm not meeting my goals the way I want to. So today I had 2 soft boiled eggs, 1/2 english muffin with butter, 4 oz. pork steak, salad and 1/2 cup mashed potatoes. coffee, water and wine. There I'm accountable again. Yay me.. Thanks for listening Hi Lene

Not a lot to say today. Didn't work out today. Should feel bad about that, but in the grand scheme of things, I only need to work out 3 days a week. So feeling bad is not a good thing. When there is two days left in the week and I haven't worked out……time to feel bad. Not gonna happen till then. So for today, I feel good, am happy. And that's the way it should be. Thanks for listening

I consider this the first day because it's the first day of journaling. Which can help me grow. And I need to grow. I had gastric plication February 11, 2011. The best thing I've done for myself. Well, among other things. I started my journey at 258 lbs. OCC asked me to lose 20 lbs. before my surgery. I figured it was to show I could be disciplined. I did that and went into the clinic at 238 lbs. I stayed for three days to assess my vitals. When given the go ahead I came home. I had a few uncomfortable feelings over the next week or so. Once I ate a spicy meal and threw it up. That was the last time I did that. I reduced my food intake by 2/3. I've maintained that. My food choices are where I haven't changed. Sometimes I think I should diet, but I don't want to. I had the surgery so that I wouldn't have to change what I like to eat. Over the next 10 months to 1 year, I lost 95 lbs. 165 is a good weight. Not what I weighed in high school, but I'm 65 and the smaller I am the more excess skin I have. I have my ups and downs and so with that said, I'll check in tomorrow with another day in the life. Thanks for listening

I can't answer as a current smoker when I had my surgery, but I did quit well before my surgery. The only help I can give you is this: if you are having trouble quitting smoking, then you will be setting yourself up for failure. This is an expensive lesson if you're not prepared both physically and mentally and emotionally. Any big change in your life requires your discipline. This was clear to me and why I quit completely before my surgery. How I quit smoking was to know that demons would come up to force my hand. I needed to have faith that my choice to quit was more important. This is why I've not smoked (after 30 years of actively smoking) for 25 years now. And why I've lost 95 lbs. with my surgery with OCC. I hope this helps you.