Taking part in life again

[ValleyGirl]

Just wanted to share some happy news. There is an annual Ladies in Media Golf tournament in my area every year and even though I've always really wanted to go, I have not because I didn't think the golf course was a place for "fat girls". Besides, being on the radio, nobody has to know what I actually look like but if I go out in public, my "dirty little secret" is out.

I have missed SO many fun events in the past five or six yeras because I felt too fat to participate. I just didn't want anybody to see how big I had become...I was so embarassed. I know this is vain and you should feel good about yourself no matter what size you are, but that's my truth- vain or not. Well, I went yesterday. I had a ball, and I hardly recognize myself in this photo. I'm so used to being the big girl in the pic but I blend right in!!!

I'm wearing the red tank top and ball cap....not bad for almost 200 pounds still. I actually like how I look! I haven't been able to say that for a very long time.

Sabrina:)

[AngieB]

Just wanted to share some happy news. There is an annual Ladies in Media Golf tournament in my area every year and even though I've always really wanted to go, I have not because I didn't think the golf course was a place for "fat girls". Besides, being on the radio, nobody has to know what I actually look like but if I go out in public, my "dirty little secret" is out.

I have missed SO many fun events in the past five or six yeras because I felt too fat to participate. I just didn't want anybody to see how big I had become...I was so embarassed. I know this is vain and you should feel good about yourself no matter what size you are, but that's my truth- vain or not. Well, I went yesterday. I had a ball, and I hardly recognize myself in this photo. I'm so used to being the big girl in the pic but I blend right in!!!

I'm wearing the red tank top and ball cap....not bad for almost 200 pounds still. I actually like how I look! I haven't been able to say that for a very long time.

Sabrina:)

WAY TO GO! I am so impressed! You look so great and I am sure you are feeling it too!

Sabrina - you give me hope and inspiration! I can relate to you so much. I have missed so many functions because of my fat girl mentality. I have myself locked in the fat prison and am so ready to get out. For right now I am setting on the side lines but my hope is that will all change in the coming year! I am so glad you shared your vanity, because I am the same way.

[1papaya]

You look amazing! And yes that is very happy news And I too can relate. I have missed so many of my kids functions at school, because of my weight. I would always obsess as to what I could wear that would hide the fat. But now that I have lost weight I have made it a point to attend as many functions as possible. I will be volunteering all day next Monday for the end of school year picnic.

[Eclipse]

Wow, you look great. I think alot of us can relate to not going out

because of our weight. Keep up the great work!!!!!

[angelarias]

hi there:

it is amazing how many life events we missed out on because we thought we were too fat. people really don't notice, though. they just miss our presence!!

to those that are waiting to "fit into the right dress" or "not be the fat one", don't. go to these events--your family and friends want you there. life is too short.

what a great post and nice photo!!

cheers,

angel

[PAMMIE]

YOU GO SABRINA!!! =D>

[Kristi]

Wow, your message really got to me.

From January through April I really didn't want to socialize with family and friends becaue I felt so out of place.

I was in my best friends wedding, she married my brother-in-law, and I was in horror after the pics came out of how truly big I had gotten.

This was only back on April 24th. After that I hid myself again, trying to finish losing the 11 pounds the Doc told me I had to lose before the surgery.

It is only now that I am ready to be around people again. I totally understand...

Anyways, You look so great. What a wonderful accomplishment you have made! Your photos are wonderful!

Congrats!!

[MyNewLife]

Sabrina,

You have done so well with this experience and I am so glad that you went and had a wonderful time. I have a ways to go, I think one of the hardest things for me to deal with is when someone has not seen me in a while. I guess I still dont "mind feel" smaller....which for some strange reason I thought I would. Anyway Congrats! You look great!

Carrie

[Smiley]

Sabrina - You look great! You are no longer the big girl in the picture - YEAH!!!

Carrie - I understand what you mean by not "mind feeling" smaller. Hopefully you have taken pictures along the way. I did pictures every 3 months which helped some, along with sending them to people who only see me once every year or two. For some reason their comments did more for me than the comments of people that saw me every day. After my TT and Arm Lift was when I really started to "mind feel" smaller and started acting like it. It was at this point that I was no longer a smaller version of the old me with the same rolls in a smaller size. I now had a completely different shape - FLAT - albeit swollen in the stomach area and nothing was flapping on my arms. I am already wearing sleeveless outfits even though my scars have the potential to show because I don't care as the scars are better than the flab was. Hang in there, your mind will catch up with your body!