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Mona

Hey girl, did you have your fill appointment yesterday or today? How did it go? I know you weren't stepping on the scale until that time and your clothes have been getting way to big for you. Did you get another fill? Curious minds want to know!

xoxox

I expected 15 pounds but would have been happy with 10. I couldn't wait to come on here and shout to the world how happy I was. But.....it was not to be.

I went tuesday. A huge disappointment for several reasons and of course, embarrassment so I didn't post. I actually gained one pound but lost 3 pounds of fat. I don't even know how that is possible since I AM very tight! He gave me another fill and now I have a total of 10 cc's and am very very tight. Still on liquids. Afraid to eat because I can tell I am very tight. I can get liquids down, but slowly.

I do no not know what is wrong with me. It isn't possible to eat what I eat and NOT lose weight. It just isn't possible. I have been walking every day at lunch for 45 minutes which is a good 3 miles. I have almost no arbs whatsoever. Meat fish and veggies only. Occasionally oatmeal. No sugar, no butter, no oil - there is simply no reason for me not to lose weight.

I am beyond crushed. I don't know why this is the way it is or what to do. I have already had several thyroid tests and they come back fine. I even had a diabetes test and it came back fine.

And to top it off, the doctor decided that his charge of $100 wasn't enough so I have to pay $250 for a fill now. I screamed at them. THey didn't even bother to call me and tell me before hand, they told me after I got there for my appointment, so if I wanted a fill I was forced to pay it. Then, the doctor couldn't find my port and dug an dug and dug!

So, I spent the rest of the day crying. It is very hard to have hope after all this time. Especially when I know what I am doing. Lap band or not, I should be losing weight.

I give it one more month and if nothing comes off of me then I am going to insist that my regular doctor find out why my body will not let go of this weight. This is ridiculous!

And on top of all of this, I feel horrible for coming on here to post this news again. I feel like a fool like a failure and it is humiliating and embarrassing. And I feel bad for any newbies reading this and I don't want to scare them off. And now everyone is going to say "oh not again, Ramona complaining about not losing weight, she must be such a cheat".

***tears.

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I expected 15 pounds but would have been happy with 10. I couldn't wait to come on here and shout to the world how happy I was. But.....it was not to be.

I went tuesday. A huge disappointment for several reasons and of course, embarrassment so I didn't post. I actually gained one pound but lost 3 pounds of fat. I don't even know how that is possible since I AM very tight! He gave me another fill and now I have a total of 10 cc's and am very very tight. Still on liquids. Afraid to eat because I can tell I am very tight. I can get liquids down, but slowly.

I do no not know what is wrong with me. It isn't possible to eat what I eat and NOT lose weight. It just isn't possible. I have been walking every day at lunch for 45 minutes which is a good 3 miles. I have almost no arbs whatsoever. Meat fish and veggies only. Occasionally oatmeal. No sugar, no butter, no oil - there is simply no reason for me not to lose weight.

I am beyond crushed. I don't know why this is the way it is or what to do. I have already had several thyroid tests and they come back fine. I even had a diabetes test and it came back fine.

And to top it off, the doctor decided that his charge of $100 wasn't enough so I have to pay $250 for a fill now. I screamed at them. THey didn't even bother to call me and tell me before hand, they told me after I got there for my appointment, so if I wanted a fill I was forced to pay it. Then, the doctor couldn't find my port and dug an dug and dug!

So, I spent the rest of the day crying. It is very hard to have hope after all this time. Especially when I know what I am doing. Lap band or not, I should be losing weight.

I give it one more month and if nothing comes off of me then I am going to insist that my regular doctor find out why my body will not let go of this weight. This is ridiculous!

And on top of all of this, I feel horrible for coming on here to post this news again. I feel like a fool like a failure and it is humiliating and embarrassing. And I feel bad for any newbies reading this and I don't want to scare them off. And now everyone is going to say "oh not again, Ramona complaining about not losing weight, she must be such a cheat".

***tears.

Oh Ramona... ><' ><' Thank you so much for posting! It does take courage to put it all out there and please know there is NO WAY you are failure!! It's just not possible! Through all of this you have always said "my time will come" and I believe that is still true. I agree 100% with you that you SHOULD be losing weight! There must be a medical reason that has yet to be discovered for you. I wish I could reach out and give you a giant hug right now. ><'

You are a beautiful, strong and resiliant person Mona! I know there is something that is preventing this weight from falling off you, that is the only explanation. Is there any way you could e/mail Dr. Ortiz directly with a detailed status report of exactly what has been happening to you since day 1 and see if he has any suggestions, ideas, comments.. anything?!?!

Then you had to deal with the additional insult to injury by paying way more for your appointment. I'm so sorry. :(

How long will you be on liquids before you attempt to eat? Did the Dr. Have any useful suggestions for you? I hope you came home and got lots of kitty love.

You are in my thoughts and I will be checking in with you.

xoxoxo

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Oh my dear Mona I feel your pain. You are working so hard and it must be frustrating as Hell to not see the numbers. I would be in tears too.

You did say that your clothes were getting bigger though so maybe it's inches first, not pounds which is weird I know.

You are such an important part here and thank you for being honest in your post. People need to know it;s not all sunshine and bliss with the band. Our bodies do have a mind of their own sometimes and you are an honest person who would just say it if you had been cheating.

A big :lb4: ... you will win this battle just keep your goals in sight. It may take longer than you ever imagined but it will happen. I am losing slow also, eating as I should and it's very , very frustrating. You are not alone and thanks for posting this honest bit of info.

(((((BIG HUG)))))

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Thanks ladies, you guys are so thoughtful and make me feel better. I am going to try to stay on liquids fro a while and see if that doesn't help. I was able to lose for me pre-op by doing that so I am going to try it again. The regular rules don't seem to be working, so it can't hurt to try it this way.

I DO feel ok though after thinking about it. Although the scale didn't show it, I did lose 3 pounds of pure fat. With the one pound gain, that must mean it is muscle I gained. (This is from that cool scale I told you about - weighs water, bones, muscle and fat separately).

It is very hard to stay optimistic, but I am trying.

Thanks again ladies!

As for the rest....it's exactly what I expected and why I didn't want to post this.

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Mona ~ DON'T get frustrated yet. Everything Mindy and Julie is saying is correct. Remember when you agreed with me that every person's body is different? Well, guess what? WE ARE! BUT...you are doing everything right. There could be a number of reasons why you are not seeing the numbers going down on the silly scale, such as:

> body weight fluctuates with water retention, TOM, the big STRESS!

> if you are doing hard core exercises. This is a big one and need to remember that you are building, toning and firming muscles you haven't had in a long time and muscles = weight gain when you start up

> when do you weigh? Always weigh at the same time of the day and try to wear (or not! LOL) the same clothes, each time, but not every day. Choose one day a week or two.

I am sure I am missing a few other things but you get my meaning? Hang in there Mona! I know this new fill you just got is tight and we are in the middle of the holidays, etc. I feel for you and your heartache...but it is NOT the end!

If I was in your position right now, this moment, I would 'pretend' to be a newbie again and see if I can 'kick start' this thing. Go on soups (forget the broth stage ~ HA!) and protein shakes for a few days, DON'T do heavy exercises but instead just do walking only. Do this for a few days and then progress up to the solid foods and progress your exercises too.

ALSO, don't laugh, but keep a journal sweetie! I am telling you this because when you write things down you will see the results of your success! YES! I write down all the foods I eat and tally the calories up at night, write down my feelings, mark off my water intake, review my small reachable goals and rewrite them as I achieve them, and what exercises I did. If it was a good day, then put a star up on the right hand corner of the page for future reference.

I hope I am helping in some small way and I AM SO PROUD OF YOU TO POST WHAT YOU DID! It just goes to show that you are being honest and true of what is going on with yourself and you are going to find a solution ~ THAT'S the BEST part! You are NOT going to let it beat you. THAT's the spirit!

Hang in there kiddo...in due time, the numbers will show as much as your inches have done! ((HUGS!))

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